//mii..

2009-09-09T01:03:00.002+08:00

i cant help but feel upset about this..
To all Jaebeom antis.,
this is just my personal feelings..

Netizens just like myself, alone., cannot harm anyone...
But if there are thousands of netizens agreeing on smth against someone for example., it can cause suicides that are often seen nowadays..

2pm's jay made a comment 4yrs ago during his trainee days.. everyone who's a kpop fan would noe how training is like for them.. unsure if they would be able to debut.. training everyday without knowing if u'll really make it.. wad made things worse for jay? He's not used to the environment., everyone's a stranger to him., he's not used to the food and etc.. some people just can adapt to different environments quicker than others..

he's made an apology for wad he had done.. im sure many koreans would be upset at the comments he has made.. but cant he be forgiven.?

Angry netizens had a petition for him to commit suicide.? Isnt it too harsh.???
he took responsibility for his actions.. he left the group and left korea.. heartbreaking..

He's too talented to just leave like that.. the years of training all gone down the drain.. im not trying to make this dramatic., but his mom is sure feeling very heartbroken..

and im sure he wasnt made 2pm's leader for nothing..
the breakdancing., the witty side of him on variety shows., the really good dancing.. good singing.. leading 2pm..

He acheived his dream 1 year ago after years of training.. and after being in the spotlight for only 1 year and slowly learning how to manage it., he has to leave..

Now., i think many would feel the same way i do.. empty..

2009-08-10T04:08:00.000+08:00

Its been ard 3 months since ive blogged..
amazing how tme passes so quickly..
its 4am in the morning now.. and its another sleepless night for me.. its just insomnia~~ oooHooo oOoh~~
the exams are around the corner and i cant get myself to start studying..
my mind seems pretty confused these days.. i wake up not knowing wad im supposed to do for the day..
life is definitely not boring.. im the one making life boring..

everybody in this world are selfish people.. they only care about "me, myself and i" why.?

ugly duckling turning into a swan?
a beautiful piece of art can actually be moulded from dirty clay.?
im starting to really like dancing..
but can i.?

Lois Chan!! Learn to accept!

song for the day: by SNSD taeyeon - If

2009-05-11T22:16:00.003+08:00

Finally i feel that things are falling into place and im feeling better than how ive suffered for the past few weeks..

Lucky i have my lovely patient friends around me who have been tolerating my bad temper and random shouting..

School work is once again coming to us 1 by 1 and piling up.. presentations., practical assessments as well as theory.. its giving me a whole lot of headache.. hai..

My mind is full of songs right now..

Sorry sorry sorry sorry
naega naega naega meonjo
nege nege nege ppajeo
ppajeo ppajeo beoryo baby

and

again & again & again & again
Nuh ehgeh jaggoo dolaga
weh geurunji molla
weh geurunji molla
Again & again & again & again
Nuh eh maleh ddo soga
weh geurunji molla
weh geurunji molla

turning in my head..
OMG~ lois.. wad're you thinking about when you're supposed to be thinking about sch work.!!?!?!?!?!

its not like im trying to be materialistic or smth now., but there are some things that i really wanna buy.. hahahaa..

1. sports shoes
2. bag (backpack kind)
3. handphone
4. heels
5. thsk dvd
6. my hair needs treatment
7. judo gi

Outings i owe due to lack of free time:

- kbox-ing with qiuling and fren
- esplanade-ing with dansen (june)
- chilling with jeff and nick-y

people i miss:
- my darling si rong..!!!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...........................!!!!!!!

pls spare me some time~

2009-03-15T18:22:00.007+08:00

Few songs im hooked onto these days..

Super junior 3rd album - sorry sorry

Neyo - Because of you

Rain - i do

Jolin - Real man

its 2 weeks into attachment.. the first week was rather relaxing cuz all we had to do was observe how things were done in the polyclinic.. during my short 1 week stay there i met frens that i havent seen for a long time.. kai jing and haja..!! lols.. they were sick i guess.. not long after., i met kaijing for a "Ktv Session" with qiuling too... TOTALLY CRAZY..!! hahahaha.. the 3 of us werent singing properly.. just screaming into the mics most of the time and the duets between qiuling and me went totally OFF... hahaha.. but who cares anyway.. we had fun.. even when the time was up and no songs were played., kaijing and qiuling just kept singing on & on & on.. i LMAO-ed..hahaha..

i went to xiaozhu's autograph session with VERY LITTLE ENERGY left in me after work.. haha.. but i met up with a friend whom i havent seen in more than a year..

attachments in hospitals are always enjoyable.. looking at patients make me realise how lucky i am.. sometimes i feel hopeless when i dont understand patients or cannot do anything more to help them.. sometimes its as if you really can feel the pain on yourself.. im working with new friends.. since my classmates are all in another ward.. luckily i already have darren and azmi for company since i met them during the polyclinic attachment..

each day in the ward is seriously soooo interesting that when i come back from work i can tell mummy all the interesting things that happened for more than an hour.. although the work is tiring., each day that passes is sooooo fun.. oh ya.!! my bro called me from indo..!! he called just when i was having my break from work.. i remembered that that call seriously made me happy for the day since i was having some problems that day..

gran doesnt like me being a nurse.. haha.. why do people think that being a nurse is all about cleaning up people's shit and changing diapers and all that.? i dont think so.. its soo much more than that.. anyways.. who cares about what they think about nursing anyways.. its my choice.. since mama and daddy is fine with it., its fine already..

results are going to be released in another 2 days.. making me feel scared once again.. i really gotta make it this time.. but Lois deserves this dont she..? lols.. like what people is always saying, "always playing and always not serious in what shes doing.. ".. yepp.. thats me i guess..

2009-02-23T23:07:00.004+08:00

Celebrated li han's birthday.!! poor thing.. li han's birthday comes once every 4 years..
hahahaha
sad-ed..
we ate together at yuki n yaki.. nice food.!! hahahaha..
the daddies for the day were jaya and xiang jian sial..
especially xiang jian..
he's always.. 'what you wanna eat.?? pork., fish, chicken, beef??' hahahaa.. he and prathab did all the cooking.. the 2 of them kept cooking and not eating.. so food that comes onto my plate will be fed into jaya's mouth "with love" from Lois(see how nice am i even tho jaya disfigured my face.?! haha joking oni~).. haha..

i dun understand why jaya wanted the prawn in this picture... lolss.. and xiang jian., forever hating pictures..

cynthia always running around the 3 tables trying to get food.. hahaha.. cute sial..

waaaaaaa.. making ice cream..!!

my hp's bright bright flash's able to cover the abrasions given to me on my face "with love" by jaya.. ahahaha..

why does alex look unhappy in the picture... the abrasions slightly seen on my face.. i wont blame jaya anymore for it since he cooked for me..!! hahahaha.. joking~

2009-02-20T23:55:00.007+08:00

Yesterday was pretty fun.. i went out with my mama who's been couped up at home for so long that i feel bored for her.. ahhaha.. so i brought her out.. she's the one who actually wanted to go to carefour.. but we din go there in the end..

went to marina square.. looked around.. is marina square becoming ghost town or smth.? its soooo quiet..

i ate soooo much yesterday.. the food made my day... LOLS.. i ate kimchi soup.. its the first time eating it.. i poured the bowl of rice into the soup and ate it.. nice nice..

after a long walk in marina square.. i brought mummy to the esplanade and sat near the waters.. haha.. we just sat there and talked for quite some time.. i told her that this is how i spend my days out.. haha.. isnt it interesting.?? (=.=')

sun setting... ..

this was a picture taken last year.. hahaha.. there was only one building..

now theres 2 buildings.. built so quickly..

i cam-whored there actually.. its been a long time since i cam-whored..
i really look like mummy dont i..?? hahaha..

we got the same nose., the same "sad eyebrows".. ahahaha..

i bought some cotton candy to eat.. and by that time it was already dark..

FUNNY..

i wanted to continue some cam-whoring with sissy..

so i smiled nicely and cos she said the flash's too bright, she didnt wanna look at the camera..

so i followed suit and started making faces instead of taking proper pictures.. hahaha..

jie always has her eyes closed in all the pictures cos the flash is tooo bright(i dun think the flash was that bright..)..

2009-02-17T20:47:00.010+08:00

nothing better to do for now~

random picture spam once again..

DONT UNDERSTAND why i take pictures with you guys yet they cant be put up.. (-.-")

guess which is me?

what's with me loving this "kiss" facial expression when taking pics sial.. hahaha..

OF COS.., my bro gotta be included..

my "far-yet-so-near" friends..

forever crazy when the 2 of us meet..

Rockars~

the "kiss" from me again.. i look more like a fish though.. d cam whoring in da tooolet..

this is what we usually do in class.?

Bestie~

MY SISTA!

quite sometime ago.. found this interesting.. the 3 of us in this picture, are totally doing different things., showing different expressions.. wad the~~ i remember that we were in the sauna when this was taken..

most recent.. ECP trip with the gals..

2009-02-17T19:04:00.002+08:00

the exam blues.. OVER~

im going to enjoy this short period of holiday before attachment.. hees..

RANDOMNESS~~

while tidying up my cupboard just now i dropped my bottle of medicine.. $$$$ flying away cuz of my carelessness.. duh~ the bottle broke and my whole floor became a pool.. i picked up and threw the big pieces of shattered glass and used a towel to clean up the rest.. DAMMIT..! while washing the towel, some shattered pieces were stuck to the towel and i cut my hand.. (-.-")

just now in the mrt, i couldnt stand this auntie who sat beside me.. in that crowded mrt., she kept standing and sitting and standing and sitting.. when we reached city hall, she pushed everybody who was in her way to get out of the mrt.. i was staring at that auntie for sooo long that once my babe saw my expression, she blocked that auntie on purpose.!! hahaha.. what a meannie.!

ive just realised i just cant be bothered towards some things/people now.. whats the use of saying things again and again and again when u nod and say understand, but 2 seconds later i find out that you totally didnt get what i said OR just dont wanna see things from my point of view.. AND SO., i just end up shutting up my mouth and accepting whatever is being said even if im being wrongged or smth.. dont always want things to go your way.. compromise., understand.. listen to people.. i kept mum for so long.. now that ive said everything out to YOU., u think it through.. whether still frens or not, up to you.. haiya.. wad the hell..

its as if a typhoon just passed my room.. (-.-') books and papers everywhere.. floor dirty.. table messy.. for the past week ive couped myself at home to study.. SERIOUSLY AMAZING RIGHT? i didnt know im capable of mugging too.. spent valentines day studying for least 3/4 of that day.. sad-ed..

ive noticed that im becoming more impatient., my temper's changing too.. AND im becoming alot more talkative.. sometimes i listen tooooo much to people that i feel like exploding..
SHOOT~ but ive also realised that what i talk about most frequently are things that ive done with my frens, or things that my frens did that are sooo adorable..

i didnt switch off my light last night before going to sleep cos i fell asleep studying.. HAI.. the reluctance of waking up in the mornings...............................

Songs ive been addicted to lately:

DBSK - kiss shita mama, sayonara
Rain - Rainism
Rain - Love story
David Archuleta - Crush
Christina aguilera - Hurt
Taeyang(big bang) - Look only at me/나만바라봐
DBSK - Ride on
Kyuhyun, Ryeowook(piano) - The first feeling
Frankie J - Dont wanna try
Big bang - haru haru
Big Bang - Lie

Shows that are "MUST - WATCH" to me currently:

WE GOT MARRIED
its a korean entertainment program where celebrity couples are put together to live a make-believe married life.. all of them are given concepts to follow.. personal favourites.. andy-solbi, hyunjoong-hwangbo(younger husband, older wife), hwanhee-hwayobi(R&B couple), kangin-yoonji(university students)..

BOYS OVER FLOWERS
korean drama.. its a korean version of meteor garden, or of hana yori dango.. it started out as a "wanna see hyunjoong acting" thingy.. but the show is really nice.. so im following it everyweek..

is it really confirmed that xiaozhu is coming to sg in the coming april.?

2009-02-03T22:31:00.002+08:00

im gonna blog while i still have some time to... exams are coming soooooonn..!! sian-ed

today's nadia's birthday.. happy 18th birthday!!! we had a smaalll celebration for her..

goodness me.. tmr would be warner's birthday!! happy 20th birthday!!

i recently met my darlings.. how "often" do we get to meet.?!?!?!

LOVE THEM.!!

i read some stuff about my star sign recently..
and some things seem to be true.. ..

- If you are not sincere with your feelings, don't even try to get close to a Scorpio girl.
- She can easily make out your real intentions
- insulting her is not at all good for your health.
- Even when her tone is soothing, her disposition kind and her smile generous, she can be planning the most powerful retaliation. When a Scorpio woman is insulted or gets hurt, her fury knows no bounds.
- she can become the most hard-hearted and most sarcastic person on this earth.
- If she loves with fierce devotion, she hates with devastating malice.
- She is passionate with everything that is related to her. It is almost impossible for her to have neutral feelings. Either she will deeply cherish or fiercely hate.
- Her characteristics profile will make her storehouse of secrets, but people wouldn't know any of hers.Her personal life will be out of bounds for everyone. At the same time, she will never tell the secrets that have been confided in her, not even to you. Even with you, she will have a private part and its better not to pry. That does not mean she is dishonest. Infact, she will be so brutally honest that, at times, she may hurt people in the process.
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...
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.....
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...... it seems like the whole thing is true..!!
oh my goodness..
hahahahhaha..

my stomach is killing me~~

2009-01-24T20:18:00.002+08:00

more than a month since i've blogged..
been busy with exams and projects.. and of cos, "busy" being sick..
finally most of them are over and CNY is approaching.. i dun like CNY, but i like the holiday..
there have been disappointments recently..
1) HA exam.. i failed it with flying colours.. i didnt practice well enough and duh.. no one else to blame except for myself...
2) HS1090 project.. it was a project i was incharge of.. but we started on this project extremely late because of me being sick for tooo long and not coming to school for about a week and a half since the hols ended and bio practical ICA and our psychology project also clashed.. we left out such a huge point to the extend it really seemed like i didnt bother.. after the project we had feedback from the lecturer which made us feel even worse.. the most each of us could get was a B.. Attending the tut after this presentation, the disappointed looks on their faces made me feel sucky..

arent i just lucky? recently i realised that there will always be somebody that i can fall back on when i get upset.. gelinda recently told me that i didnt seem the type who had problems cuz i always seems happy.. ahhaaha.. everyone has problems right? i have to say a big "THANK YOU" to them for keeping quiet and letting me whine all i want till i my anger dies., or for doing something totally unexpected just to make me happy.. i feel so 幸福!! hahaha..

i need sleep~~~~~~

2008-12-18T23:27:00.002+08:00

Expectations expectations expectations....

the 2 weeks holiday seems very draggy.. going to school seems to be a drag too.. i cant seem to wake myself up and i seem to be late for every meeting nowadays.. Reports and projects have to be done., but i dont feel like lifting a finger for these dull work.. half of the holiday is almost gone now.. and christmas is approaching.. unlike like other years., this year's christmas seems like a "wadever~" for me.. except for christmas party i guess..

well as for other problems.. or.. i shouldnt consider them problems since i brought them upon myself... i've gone over limits so now its time i got pulled back.. i've broken the trust., and so now they've got no trust in me.. but at the same i dun understand the constant questioning and doubt that they now keep giving me.. YES I KNOW..! influence~ but like wad i've always believed in., influence is a choice.. so if i do something wrong., the fault is mine.. never blame others around me.. i know what to do now.. so its time i work to get the trust back..

Shing's coming back to sg in a day or 2.. and jeff lied to me bout a whole lotta things all these while.. HOW COULD YOU.!? i met him and gave him a strong stare before he told me the truth.. i knew that he knew something just that he tried to hide it when we're on the phone.. hahaha.. 5 of us "reunited" as friends., and friends only.. and Shing can celebrate christmas with his family.!! i hope~

2008-11-24T21:28:00.004+08:00

At long last.. my dear friend amin has finally gotten the gig he wanted.. although it wasnt a big performance., it was really good for his "debut".. they sang 2 originals.. and though they werent together for a long time., their chemistry was good.. there was a mistake during the encore song..i think everyone was a lil tooo high.. so they took it from the chorus.. hahaha.. i had Sab, Navin and Siva for company to go to the gig.. DAMN.. we were told to meet at 11.45.. and navin told siva to come at 11.30.. and SIVA STILL CAME LATE.. like WTH..

~SkullmaniA~

Dale and Nathan on guitar.. Loads of headbangin throughout the performance..

Nathan on the vocals and guitar..

Amin on the drums..
he really wanted the drumset to be in the middle of the stage.. Awwww... it was at the side.. LOLS..

Wan on base on the right..

~SM~

HHAHAHA.. patrina was invited by nathan and in met her at the club..!! haha.. after the gig we had a small get together(after such a long time) before going seperate ways..!! hahahaha..

2008-11-21T01:34:00.005+08:00

Deal with it.. as always.. my blog always post stuff that already happened way back.. i admit im lazy.. the pictures are actually posted backwards(im lazy to shift them).. i actually celebrated my birthday with the girls first., then my classmates., the judokas., then went for the G-max ride at night.. hahaha.. ive neglected my 3 pigs for my birthday celebrations but everytime i go out with them i feel like im celebrating some occasion already.. so.. dun need to celebrate with them liao lahs.. .. hees..

anyway.. i spent the night out after judo with dansen and aza.. hahaha.. joseph din come.!!!! pangseh.. lols.. i was freakin nervous about the ride before.. but it turned out to be just ok... it wasnt as scary as i thought it would be.. hhaha..

LOLS.. i havent eaten this ice cream in a super long time... .. hees..

Celebrated my birthday after judo training..!! hees.. xiang jian asked lihan to buy a cake.. because i came late., li han thought i wouldnt come for training asked xiang jian to eat the whole cake by himself if i really din come... wahhahahah.. No wonder xiang jian made sure i came for training.. hees.. THANKS.!

Jaya helping me cut my cake.. .. hees..

the 2 army boys.. botak.!

In school.. Eileen bought me a stage cap.!!!! AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH.!! hahhahaha love the present..!! hees..

I ssssseeeeeeerrrrrrrrriously din noe my classmates were planning a small celebration for my birthday..!! ahahha.. i was sleeeping during lecture but noticed that they kept going in and out of the lecture hall.. LOL..

Of Cos i had to call dansen to the celebration.. .. As promised.. ..

my lovely group members who were the ones who planned this..

and my classmates who celebrated with me..!!

Cute warner cut our picture from the pic above and edited it to become this..!! cute eh.?? hees.. i love the prez he gave too..!! T-concert.!! wwooooooott.!

isnt this like birthday celebration protocol.?? LOL.. smashing of cakes onto faces.. -.-'

and of cos they managed to smash it onto my face in the end..

And of cos.., 13th november.. i celebrated my birthday together with another birthday girl paige whose birthday is on the 12th of nov..!! hees...

We ate ajisen ramen.. hees.. the food was great.. but the drinks.. ... ..

hahaha.. read their expressions and you should noe how the drinks taste like.. But my loves.., why did y'all order green tea in the first place..??? hahahah.. luckily i ordered ice lemon tea~~

we celebrated with mini cakes out on the open air playground on the 4th floor of the mall.. cool feeling..

i mean im like totally serious.. but i made the same wishes for all the cakes that i blew out... and i really really really X10000000000000000000 wish that they come true.. hahaha.. say that im naive or wadever.. but im just really hoping they come true..

Ive been in a slight bad mood for like the past 2 days.. shit man.. my stomach keeps acting up recently.. really irritating.. and I seriously hate it when people misinterprets my expression for something that its not.. and so today I met nick for awhile to sort things out and get problems off my chest.. its super obvious that since the day he was so emo that something isnt right.. and yet.. he doesnt wanna tell me anything.. FINALLY.. got it out of his golden mouth.. lols..

Nick im so sure you’ll read this since you noe me “so well”… hahhah.. I consider you my confidant, my bestie, my buddy.. at times, an ass****.. especially with shing around last time.. but whatever it is, u noe the whole story, and have kept it safely to yourself. How can I not trust you.? and also., you’re the one who’s always around when I need somebody to talk to, never complaining to come all the way down just to let me vent my frustrations on you..!! AND OF COS.. dun tell me im not nice to you k.. LOLS.. But since I treat you this way, I dont wan our friendship to change to anything else.. like ive told you just now.. I noe wad you did wasnt on purpose the other day.. and its just a small bruise., that seems to be getting worse.!! HHAHAH.. you hit me..!! im not gonna forgive you.. .. HAHAHAHA.. im just joking.. just don’t get yourself into that situation again.. anyways.. no worries.. hahah.. Dun treat me any nicer now that you’ve told me bla bla bla bla.. im sure you noe wad I mean.. and you noe I hate it.. im confident that the answer I will give would be the same if you ever ask me again so no more "xmas i will ask again" ok.??? love the prez you gave.!!

NICK.! till death do us part..!! *puke* LOL..

2008-11-03T00:35:00.005+08:00

my blog is getting more and more retarded.. as in.. literally.. hahaha.. im going to blog about friday., and im going to blog about today maybe tmr or the day after.. so valerie..!! if u wan pictures u can take it from mell.!! hahhaha..

i noticed that ive been doing really "interesting" things after school these days.. hahaha..

on friday after judo., we went to AMK hub to have dinner.. we were supposed to catch a movie but it was really TOO late.. so we wanted to play pool., but it was so0o0 packed with people.. hahah..

so we ended up going to some ulu playground to chill for awhile.. the thing i dont like about that place was the little light that the playground had.. i couldnt see much.. hhahaha..

I seriously havent sat on a swing for a freaking long time.. hahaha.. the 4 of us who went there really played the swing as if we were kids..!! lols.. it was a freaking fun time..

junming's legs looks as if they are broken.. hahaha..

OMG.. and i it was only on friday that junming FINALLY realised that i was year 1.. and he all along thought that i was a year 3 student and a lifetime older than him.. *sob* lols..!!

this is what happens when we try to self cam..

someone gets cut from the picture...

once..,

and again..

again.,

and finally., get it right..!!

2008-10-28T18:12:00.004+08:00

As always., i'll only blog about interesting stuff i had the past few days.. lols..

On saturday.. goodness me.. i met alvin and benjamin to go to the chinese sinseh.. Alvin was injured at his neck and knee., and ben had his shoulder injured.. lols.. all in the name of judo.. the weather was amazingly hot that day., and the chinese sinseh was at an ulu place.. lols.. i dun actually noe my purpose of going there since they had each other for company.. lols.. i left and went to meet dansen for concert..

it was an indonesian band playing..

Kua Etnika..

dansen's cousin was one of the band members.. thats why he wanted to go for the concert.. the concert was really nice anyways.. hees.. the band mixed modern music with tradditional together.. and the jokes they said were funny.. haha..

after the concert we walked to lau pa sat to eat.. i seriously didnt noe where that was at that time.. hahaha.. and while walking there., i took this picture..!! cool eh.? hahahah..

2 of dansen's friends came to join us while we were eating.. joseph., and aza.. nice people... joseph has contagious laughter.. lols.. and aza reminds me of danial.. from what i noe., dansen and joseph are classmates., and joseph and aza are friends from army.. i think...

anyways.. after eating my char kuay teow., we went to eat more satay... . . my life seems to be full of eating., eating., and more eating.. (-.-").. and we continued chatting., laughed our asses off., and went home.. hahaha.. a day that was soooooo fun..

hahaha.. Yesterday... met joseph., aza and dansen.. we had a "heartland tour" before finding a place to study cos SCHOOL WAS CLOSED.!!! ben said that he was able to get into school on hari raya..!! why werent we able to get into sch ytd.???? we looked everywhere for an appropriate place where there was power sockets for laptop., but there was none.!! so we searched till we found one.. hahahahha..

anyways..,

after all the studying(-.-").,

i think at around 7pm.. we went for dinner... and we discarded the idea of going shopping cos it was already soo late., and went to bugis to just "walk walk".. hahhaha..

dansen had to go off first cos he was meeting a fren who was leaving for indo today... and i continued walking with joseph and aza.. lols.. those 2 are really toy fanatics.. one likes star wars and the other one loves almost all kinda toys..

hahaha.. what is this.? doraemon.? right..!! its doraemon..!! but..

with aza sitting inside..!! hahahaha.. candid picture..

2008-10-20T00:55:00.006+08:00

It has been a week since school started.. timetable's bad., module's are boring.. but well., they're essential..

i know ive gotta buck up.. and im trying hard.. but its only the 5th day of school and im already sleeping during lecture.. hai..

i went to play pool with my "korkor" and asked him to teach me how to play pool too.. lols.. i think pool is really hard to play.. i really didnt like the environment though.. it seemed to be filled with wannabe gangsters..

waaa.... 잘생긴..

i talked to dansen on the phone last night for about 2 1/2hrs too.. i felt as if i sat for a lecture... LOLS.. i learnt alot.. and talking to him made me realise that its time i grow up and look and think about things differently.. hahaha.. its good talking to him.. lols..

i was supposed to help mum and dad with grocery shopping just now at giant but i met yuanzhen and started talking to her for the whole time i was there... hahha.. she told me about her JC life and i told her about my poly life.. seems like the top student in my school is also struggling while in her JC.. i guess shes fighting with the many other top students there.. LOLS..

im supposed to be spending this precious time doing my tutorial work but i have given up doing it..!! wahhahahaha.. i cant seem to find much information on it.. so wadever..

im getting a migraine.. so im gonna go to sleep soon..!!! gotta get up at 5.30 and im still awake now.. what a life..

2008-10-16T20:20:00.011+08:00

wa... so many things to update on blog.. but im just gonna update on the more interesting stuff.. LOLS.. and its gonna be really short and sweet..

Yesterday there was judo.., and the juniors got their belts.!! the white to yellow., orange to green., and green to blue.! hahaha.. cool eh.. they worked hard.. so of course they deserved the belts..

Dansen was bullied.. LOLS.. his whole face was so red with all the weight on top of him..!!

candid picture.. those who climbed up couldnt maintain the positions they were in so they all fell..

nyp judo club.!

Class was pretty boring ytd too.. so in bio lab jie lun went around playing with things around her..
hahaha..

is that a male or female.?

cindy imitating emo guys with long fringe that covers their eyes and think their cool..

had BBQ on sat and stayed over at a fren's place till sunday.. was really a fun day.. except that i had a really bad tummy ache during the BBQ..
came to woodlands really early to accompany ben get stuff for the BBQ.. then went to partyworld for a singing session with sun., cheeka., polar., alvin., and ben.. hees..
then duh~~ headed for BBQ.. Dansen came back on saturday afternoon..!! he called me when he was still in indonesia and i din noe who it was since it was an unknown no.. haha.. but he still made it back in time for the BBQ.. i totally ruined my image yet again when sleeping..!! LMAO.!!din take much pics that day..

my... clone.?

sunday morning eating breakfast together.. hahaha.. cool eh.? we ate ramyun., chicken and chicken nuggets..!! cooked with love (-.-").. by ben and lynn.. hahhahaha..

This year's october i have 2 new members in my family..!! hahahha..

Name: Katie Love Lee
Weight: 8.9lbs (She's so heavy..!!)
D.O.B.: 7th October 2008
How is she related to me : MY LITTLE COUSIN..!! heess...

her Mum's on the bed., Dad carrying her., and lovely sister kristine.!!

this baby is gonnna be a blond girl...!!

2nd baby..!!!

Name: Savannah Fatima Mulan
Weight: 7.3lbs
D.O.B.: 13th October 2008
How is she related to me: My Niece..!!

she and her pretty young mum..!!

Savannah and Katie Love together..!! haha..

DAMN..
How i wish im able to go to philippines this december.. hai...... i wanna see these 2 cuties.......!!

2008-10-08T22:03:00.003+08:00

Nevermind the fact that im prone to mood swings.,

it was really really a horrible morning for me..

i wanted go to sch via the mrt today but since i saw the bus 72 right after coming down another bus i decided to hop on.. (-.-') i seriously shouldnt have done that.. the airconditioning screwed up on the way there and the bus got so stuffy.. LOIS feeling hot = LOIS getting angry..

isnt there such a golden rule in the service line that says never say " I DONT KNOW"...????
i heard it umpteen times today and if i was right infront of the person i was talking to i would really wanna hit her.. i called nyp's finance dept.. i asked whoever who picked up the call 3 questions and she also gave me 3 "I DONT KNOW"s.. nevermind that.. i went to see if my lecture notes for the coming semester would be out and so i asked the auntie in the printing room if any lecture notes were out.. she gave me a super pissed off look for no reason.. she paused and stared me down before saying "only available on friday.." and i really didnt like her tone..... damn..

LUCKILY.. things went really well during judo..!! yay.. the whites really did very well for grading.. duh.. the effort is definitely NOT mine.. but seeing everyone putting in effort for the grading makes me really happy.. at first i was unhappy cos some just came for grading and not training.. but sensei told me at least they put in the effort to come early to train today.. yepp.. so i understand.. hahaha.. the point of the white belt's grading is not so much of the technique., but the breakfalls.. so................... EVERYONE PASS..!! hees..

2008-10-06T23:01:00.003+08:00

before i blog about other stuffs.. i just gotta vent some frustrations..

im at that point again where little things are starting to irritate me sooo much.. and since i cant do much about it., i just show a little smile on the outside when i feel the heat inside me...
school is starting in a week's time.. and like all the other times.. the nervousness always comes.. i dun really understand why im like this when everyone else seems to take it like a breeze..

frustration no. 1
theres some toot problem with my mp4 and its not even like 2 freaking months old.. and plus i took care of it more than i would for my child.. and THIS IS WHAT ITS GIVING ME.?!?!?!

frustration no. 2
i cant open hotmail..!!!! freakin irritating too..!! it seems like its not only my hotmail that has some problem opening so nvm..

frustration no. 3
so.. im mopped the housefloor today and i havent mopped in a long long time.. and it was freakin dirty.. like WTH.. i changed the water like 3 times.... nvm this.. how is it that jie always manages to escape from chores and just keep saying., "lois.. accompany me to the salon lehs.. i wanna do my hair.." and i have to do it? what i need jie to do.. Keep her toilet clean so i can welcome guests to my crib anytime i want.[impossible] mama or me have to clean the toilet for her.. and clean and tidy her pigeonhole(her room i mean).[keeping her room clean is for her own good.] jie asked me this morning when i woke up.,"u wake up on the wrong side of the bed isit?" cause i had a super annoyed look.. but who wouldnt be annoyed.? i woke at almost 2pm in the afternoon., felt hungry and wanted to cook for myself., but saw such a messy kitchen with a pot and dishes that are not washed., and sides of the sink all wet.. duh~ of cos annoyed.. so i nagged at jie to wash things up and kept that annoyed look till now..

frustration no. 4
simple.. shane asked me to go out.. anywhere i wanted to go.. so i decided on where to go...but the next moment he insisted on going somewhere else... and then shane insisted on picking me up from home... like HUH.?! its not as if he drives or whatsoever.. to me.., its just more trouble.. and he insisted.. and cuz i was not in a very good mood., i got frustrated.. and in the end i decided to stay home....

Lois lois.. u gotta control your temper abit more..

2008-09-29T17:38:00.011+08:00

Ive been very lazy to blog ever since my whole blog post disappeared and auto-saved a blank post for me..

anyways..

im gonna talk about camp first..!!

had camp on monday to wednesday last week.. the things we did were pretty boring.. but one thing i really appreciated was the socializing.. i have been told before many times that to be a good leader/senior., u gotta know ur juniors.. having known that., ive talked and thought alot about it but have never taken action.. this camp really helped me alot.. the others love to tease me about not knowing the juniors names and them mentioning names making me go., “who’s that?” at least i know the names of those who went to camp now.. LOLS... anyways.. the start of day 1 was a total bore.. i came home from work so so so late that by the time i wanted to go to sleep it was already 3.10am.. AND DAMN I HAD TO WAKE UP AT 5am.. luckily i din oversleep.. i still went out of the house at 6am as planned.. i slept throughout the bus ride.. hahaha.. and met cheeka on the bus..

monday was more of a "come to camp to slack lahs" kind of day.. we introduced everybody to everybody..

OKOK.. to prove that i can remember them.. i will say my impressions of them.. excluding ben and cheeka..

1) eileen - from brunei.. wu zun's country.! hyper at times., serious at times... u cant really figure out what she's tryin to say while she's laughing.. LOLS..!!

2) adeline - super quiet.. she's a catholic too..!!

3) jiamin - also another one who's super quiet.. knows how to play police and murderer sooooooo well that i (murderer) keep getting caught by her everytime i play.. and she also plays tai di..!! lols..

4) alvin - blabber.. always trick people when playing police and murderer also.. waliew.. say wanna teach me tai di.. also never teach me.. hmph.. hahaha.. calls himself a mama's boy.. looks like one too actually.. works at takashimaya..!! oh ya..!! i whacked him in my sleep..!! im sorry..!! LOLS..

5) jiajie - hahaha... he fell at bukit timah..!! lols.. has a foot full of matburns.. works at marina mandarin hotel as waiter.. captain there somemore.. hahahaha.. right? thanks for sharing the sleeping bag with me on the first night.! and giving up the sleeping bag to me and jiamin on the 2nd night.. LOLS...

6) chenyong - at first i knew him as "neh.. .. the guy with the aura one.." or "the emo emo one.." lols.. this was how people described to me.. but i remember him as the guy who looks good in blue contact lens.. hahahaha... im serious man.. he plays the electric guitar., and doesnt go to school regularly.. hahahaha.. right? he's really quiet.. but at the same time he really participates in wadever activities set up..

7) ahern - often referred to as "erhem..." lols.. mmmmmm... the guy who., when with his girlfren., forgets about everyone else.! hahahhaaha.. jkjk.. i still can remember that smile that he gave on the morning of the 3rd day when i was still half asleep.. keep banging the wall.. noisy u noe.??? LOLS..

8) guo ying – a guy who imitates Eileen very well.. especially her laugh..!! LOLS.. damn funny lahs when he imitate.. keeps bickering with Eileen.. i guess thats just the way the 2 of them communicate..

9) xan – also very very very quiet.. a superb murderer.. in police and murderer.. i always LMAO when he gets caught being the murderer by the police.. cuz he’ll give this really funny expression and reaction.. i can do bio on him.. too skinny..

10) zhao xin – haha... a.k.a. catfish.. he’s a loud person.. secrets cannot be left with him cuz he’ll unknowingly blabber everything out.. hahahah...

i'll talk about the more interesting stuff during camp..

we had tatami service the girls cleaned the mats., while the guys taped the spoilt tatamis..... it was pretty fun working together to get the job done too... but halfway thru., the guys started playing soccer, volleyball and monkey with a roll of cloth tape.. (-.-') how interesting..

another interesting thing was everyone's favourite game seemed to be police and murderer.. they played it for hours on end.. wow.. alvin was a pro player.. talked alot and trick people alot.. Xan was the silent killer.. he murders people very quickly.. jiamin was an excellent police.. and eileen was so0o0o0o obvious the moment she became a murderer or police.. she'll start giggling to herself..

on the 3rd day., it was raining in the morning., so we gave our morning jog a miss.. we bus-ed to s11 to have breakfast., and we have 3 hours of own time b4 training so i bugged people to go to kbox with me..........LOLS.. in the end they all wanted to play pool.. and i got checked for being 16.!! i guess cos i tied my hair like an onion head(which would be how the rest describe it to be..) Wahahahahhaa.. i got checked.!! i look young right..!! LMAO..!! *puke* BUT.! i didnt bring any ID.. so i was kicked outta there and so i went back to sch with benjamin(s).. hahaha..

CAMP~

asking to juniors to play team building games......

while we watch.......,

and they succeed easily...........

the freakingly adorable kor kors(old people.!! LOLS).....

they succeeded again..!!

and again.. with unique poses..

the the 3 poor things under the rest...

they failed this time........

hahaha... now change of game and i join the game too..!!

we sat and ate together during meals.. it feels totally cool to have our meal together...

LET ME EXPLAIN.... hahaha.. im not the only girl sleeping in the guys bunk..!! i just got caught by the camera.. =.= i slept in between jia jie(the one showing me his hp..) and alvin.. poor alvin(the guy in black and green who is being attacked by the guy in white..).. not only was i snoring away at night.. i was fighting in my sleep too!! wahahahahha.. i beat him while sleeping.. =.= im sorry..!! lOLS.. my image totally ruined................................... heees..

playing police and murderer during free time...

but of cos all of us trained seriously too...

and had fun during training..

i feel that the trust i have for taking care of the juniors is going down.. injuries can be avoided if the seniors gives better care right? what can i do to help?

Overall., camp was enjoyable.. accept for the fact that i kept quarrelling with *toot* people on the phone..

one thing that really made me happy was that the juniors did their techniques So0o0o0o0o well..!! lols.. sensei was happy with them.. wow.. their osoto gari was amazing.. thanks to faizal..!! and their ogoshi and breakfalls as well.. yay.! hahas......

OKIES.. Yesterday.. we celebrated wilson's 21st birthday..!! OHS.! his birthday is today..!!! LOLS.. anyways.. i went all the way to yio chu kang.. just to eat sakura.. =.= people present..,

Lynn

Eileen

Benjamin

Ahern

Zhao xin

Michelle and boyfriend

Salvana

Amanda

Cheeka and Sun

and of course.. Wilson..

i ate an expensive meal.. i tried my best to eat as much as i could but i was so full.. LOLS..

after that we went to AMK hub to watch movie..!! they decided to watch mirror... its M18.. and again., i was the only one there who's 16., while everyone was already past 18.. lols.. but i still was able to watch it in the end.. only ben, lynn., and ahern didnt watch the movie.. the ending of the story was disappointing to me.. hai..

after movie the guys continued with pool., while the girls had a girls talk at coffeebean before heading back home..............

and b4 i came home., i met shane..!! lols.. how cool is that man.. we havent met in a long time so we had a short talk(cos we met only conincidentally)........ hope to meet up again soon.!!

2008-09-18T23:12:00.018+08:00

Firstly.., today was a very very very exhausting day.. LOLS.. went around buying stuff for work.. i bought my black shoes., another pair of black heels., and black skirt.. haha.. Qiuling bought her black shoes..

results came out a couple of days ago.. im damn lucky.. no fails.. i really thought i would have failed judging the amount of time i spent studying during the exam period.. some may say., its not the amount of time spent.. but its how i studied.. =.= i was so disturbed by other things during the exam period.. i remember staring blankly at the books.. and thinking about every other thing except for studying what im supposed to..

i used facial tissues to wipe my make-up off today.. and i got 'said' by mom.. i didnt know that facial tissues would cause my skin to stretch.. well.. now i know.. LOLS..

anyway.. all this is not the point... today im gonna upload the recent photos that i've missed..

attachment is over., pictures to be taken with my mates in the hospital.. and my EVS friend raudah..!! she's studying nursing now in simei ITE.. and we meet working in the same ward.!! haha.. my babes gelinda and georgina and me..!!

and this.. after a long time.. the 3 of us finally went out together.. sirong., me and qiuling..!! LOL.. we went to far east.. i din buy anything on that day.. mmmmm.. we took neoprint.!! i havent taken neoprint in like.. .. .. 3 years? LOLS.. the 3 of us totally didnt noe how to use these machines anymore.. hahahaha..

OLD PICTURES THAT SIRONG TOOK MORE THAN 2 MONTHS TO SEND..!!! lols.. kbox pics.. the room that we got for only the 3 of us was HUGE..!!

and this.. was on monday.. me., qiuling and peijun went for the interview for F1 thingy.. and after that we went out..

What's this picture supposed to mean? qiuling pls ans me..

This was what i learnt during the pub tour.. sir stamford raffles was placed in this strategic location.. why? cos behind him., u see the singapore river.. behind the singapore river., u see the shophouses where the pubs are., and behind the shophouses are the singapore skyscrapers.. its sorta shows singapore's developments.. mm mm .. am i right about this?

these pictures below were failures.. we were supposed to be off the floor when the pictures were taken.. but we were either too early or too late... the camera wasnt fast enough either.. haha..

we are the born in the year of the sheep..? or isit goat?

Why did we take with the pig again..? i like 小猪 and peijun's so very loved idol eeteuk is born in the year of the pig? ... .. qiuling.. u lehs? somemore u're in both pics..

erm.. turtle? or tortoise? whatever lahs.. why did we take this pic? and the 2nd and 3rd pic shows only the tail of the turtle or tortoise.. but at the back u can see the river and the bungee thingy.. i must try it one day.. $30 bucks for students..

hees.. and this pic of peijun means??? accidental?

we werent ready for these pics... hahahahaha.. we look nuts..

here we go.. "too much~ A.! too much~ A! tooooo much~ A! tooooo~~ much~~..!! i love you..~~ neo hanaman i need you~~ neol bareboneun nun bitkwa nae maldudo~~.. ... ... "

and the picture that makes me smile everytime i see it now..!! hahahahahhahahaha.. shindong..!!! wahhahahahha..

IM MISSING MY BABE OVERSEAS.!!

2008-09-15T22:40:00.003+08:00

im really really not at peace right now.. tmr is the release of the exam results.. and true enough., like what many others have told me at the time of the exams("if u dun study, u'll regret")., im regretting that i did not study enough.. my thoughts at that point in time was., "well., if i fail., i'll change to a different course then.." but after my attachment., i really feel that maybe nursing is really something i wanna do.. of course during the attachment there are time i feel like "why am i here???"., in the beginning especially.. but overall i enjoyed it.. and i felt empty once attachment was over which is the least expected of myself.. mum says theres nothing to fear., if i have to., then just retake the subjects, even if it means retaining a sem.! she says them easily., cos shes not in my shoes.. i really do like the clinical part of nursing.. but i really dun like the books and projects.. hai.. i feel that i really cannot make it..

2008-09-07T18:39:00.003+08:00

today is a sunday.. and its been a long time since i spent the day doing pretty much nothing.. so i decided to blog.. the first week of attachment was horrific.. the 2nd week was just fine.. for the last.., which is this coming week., i dunno.. but i hope its gonna be fine.. after that., i think., sub-paperss.... here i come.! forget about that first.. i was really tired on friday after i finished at 9pm.. i went to meet sirong for dinner(or supper) at east point b4 heading home.. talked about random stuff while both of our eyes were closing and we were practically spacing out.. LOLS.. i woke up pretty late on saturday..
dad asked if i wanted to go with jie for a historical pub tour along boat quay.. except he didnt say that it was "historical".. but after i went i found it pretty interesting(if not i really wouldnt be blogging about it).. its an event that jie helped out for 938fm.. stanley leong was there.. i thought we were going to a whole line of pubs to check out.. but we went to 2 pubs only.. it was more of a historical tour.. telling us about Sir Thomas Stamford Bingley Raffles and a little of his contributions and personal life.. and about the singapore rivers and the structures around it, about how the bridges across the river were named., how the streets were named, and the conservations made to the place.. like the shop houses along the singapore river.. we went to pubs in the middle and at the end of the tour.. the worst thing was., i went out with an empty stomach.. drinking with an empty stomach leads to quicker intoxication.. so upon reaching the first pub., THE PENNY BLACK victorian london pub., they served chips.. of cos, it was shared among many of us.. so i actually secretly ate a whole lot of chips b4 the drink was served.. jie told me to order "Old Speckled Hen".. i totally didnt know wad this drink was.. but its really not bad.. the bitterness wasnt really there compared to beer.. nice nice.. peeps who are reading this should really go try it ok.. the 2nd pub we went to was MOLLY MALONE's irish pub located along circular road(if im not wrong.. its the first time i went to that pub too..) the ambience was great.. i ordered cider.. totally recommended.!!!!! but snacks werent served there during the tour.. there was a sing along session singing Molly Mallone's song and more.. the singing was by the boss of the pub.. pretty cool huh.. after that dad came to fetch us.. and i left without thanking anyone.. IM SORRY..!! THANKS EVERYBODY..!! i didnt know that places that we go to so often has such a deep complicating and long long long history.. LOLS.. anyways.. lucky dad came to fetch us anyways.. it was raining tigers and lions.. and btw.. IM STILL WAITING FOR SIRONG'S PICTURES OF THE DAY WE WENT TO KBOX TO BE SENT TO ME..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-08-31T18:57:00.002+08:00

wow.. its been a long time since i blogged.. again.. actually.. dont i always start my blog entries the same way..??? haha.. anyways.. today's a sunday.. with no exams or homework for tmr.. hahaha.. so its a little more relaxing than usual.. i have been for attachment for a week now.. the first and 2nd day was horrible.. seriously.. we had to be s0o0o0o independent cos no one would help us.. or should i say that they were tooooo busy to help us.. i didnt know how to do things.. we only had to do the most basic stuff and i still couldnt do them.. the procedure of things.. i did so many things wrongly.. including the chartings of clinical charts. and input output charts.. how could i even make this kinda mistakes at this point of time? but luckily things got better.. seeing patients cry made me wanna cry too.. *sob*.. cos u just cant find a faster way for them to feel better.. some patients are super super super cute.. hahaha... i fell sick on monday night all the way till now.. i had high fever on monday night.. continuing all the way till wednesday morning.. following that i had a cold and cough.. AND NOW MY VOICE IS GONE..!!!! hai.. how am i gonna talk tmr man............................... anyways.. after work on friday i went to meet some peeps of 406(2007) for awhile.. i was feeling super sleepy that while they were chatting in mcdonalds i couldnt help it but closed my eyes.. LOLS.. too tired lahs.. then i made my way to the dojo for training.. felt super bad during training cos of my throat.. so pain..!! nevermind.. tahan.. went home and woke up early the next morning and went to the airshow with the tan brothers(xiang jian and xiang sheng..LOLS..) and of cos xj's beloved shuling early in the morning.. i got sunburnt..!!!! LOLS.. so unevenly somemore.. hai.. they keep thinking i was in a bad mood or something.. actually i wasnt.. lols... it was just cos i couldnt talk.. after that all of us parted cos xj and shuling went to childrens class.. and xs went back home.. so of cos i had to go my way too.. went to the IT fair....... saw lots of cheap stuff... wanted to buy but couldnt.. and the worst thing was the "human traffic".. we literally pushed our way in and out of the place.. including city link area.. haiya.. anyways.. tmr is a new day., a new week of interesting work........ see how it goes..

2008-08-09T19:12:00.002+08:00

LOLS.. i know i havent blogged in a long tmr yet again.. but i'll update on interesting events another time.. now.. im watching Singapores National Day parade on tv..!! LOLS.. i dun really know why om so excited just watching it at home.. the first thing is.. its raining..!! but it doesnt kill the spirit of those who are currently at the parade celebrating.. all wearing the red ponchos.. the whole spectators stand is red.. the president inspected the parade in the rain..!! *admiration* of cos.. those who were marching were also in the rain.. all the hard work~~ the aerobatics was awesome too.. lols.. im going to continue watching.. ciao for now..!!

2008-07-23T22:26:00.003+08:00

its been a long long time since i last blogged.. but there are really too many events that happened.. so i HAVE TO note down some of the more "happening" events to let it be part of my precious memories.. haha..
starting from the most recent event..

went home rather late yesterday.. dammit.. the ride from Ang Mo Kio was really very very long.. slept in the bus and was still dreamy after coming down from the bus.. and i couldnt recognize nathan until i walked closer to him.. LOLS.. he has a totally changed image.. but maybe it was cuz i havent seen him for a long time too.. hahhahaha.. for the better or for the worse? dun worry nathan.. its for the better.. lols.. and at least after getting discouraged by soooooo many people., he encouraged me about my "dream" which i know will be forever impossible to reach.. but at least getting some encouragement made me feel better.. haha..
me and nathan with his long hair~~ the bus was really shaky.. so only bad pictures were taken.. haha..

i went for the lin you jia concert at temasek poly too.... his voice was AMAZING.. and he already knew how to mingle with his fans to make them happy... but i was really amazed cuz he really gave a good live performance.. he didnt even go out of tune jumping around the whole place.. awesome..

Of course.. i'd like to thank my lovely frens who accompanied me and who had helped to get the tix for this concert.. 사랑해요.!!

Lee an concert at my school was amazing too.!! his voice was strong.. and he had cute english and chinese.. and i managed to get a picture with him..!! yay.!

ok.. my current school life is just absolutely boring.. u just cannot help it but fall asleep in class.. i totally just fell asleep during clinical briefing today too.. if i knew that it was gonna be that boring i would just have skipped it and went for judo.. hai.. i had my vital signs checked 3 times today too.. lols.. i helped jielun, mel and georgina model for their clinical 2nd attempt today.. they couldnt find my brachial pulse..!! LOLS.. maybe im too fat.. lols.. but jielun was pressing the wrong place.. hahah.. thats why she couldnt feel it.. but all turned out well for the 3 of them.. they passed..!! my blood pressure increased as time passed.. ahahaha.. too excited for them.. lols..

2008-06-20T23:18:00.006+08:00

2 short weeks of holiday but filled with life.. it was partying for these 2 whole weeks., but nothing is more impt then reuniting with secondary school mates.. so i shall leave aside exciting stuff with those mates that i always meet up with frequently and update on mates that i havent met up with for ages..

Firstly., 406 BBQ..!! pretty fun.. instead of eating during the BBQ., we were goofing off so much.. (there are many pics taken., but i'll only put up these.. im lazy..)

we were trying to take a class photo at the playground but there wasnt enough light..

So we took it where there was light.. hahaha..

2ndly., Swimming.. it was fun..

We got our heads wrapped up when we're in the sauna.. it was 60++ degrees in there.. and we puffed our mouths like teukie.. but of cos not as adorable as he is..!! lols..

FAARRRRR TOO MUCH SWIMMING IS CAUSING ME ALOT OF PAIN.!!!!!!!!!!! sunburnt~~

what about poolside BBQ?

And of cos.. meeting up with incomplete teas.. but it was fun though.. hahahaha.. we watched movie., saw sodagreen at bugis(coincidentally), cos we seriously din noe there was an event that day..

None of us brought cams.. so we had to take picture with handphones.. which didnt turn out well.. lols.. ALL the pictures taken we imperfect.. sian..

alvin partially blocked the pic for this.,

Zhi wei moved..

And in this., alvin is sleeping?

enough of fun stuff

LIFE's a TOTAL bore.. 2 weeks gone just like that.. school's starting next week.. the crap's starting all over again.. im now starting to think if i've chosen a right path.. whether in choosing nursing.. or continuing with it.. i wanna do something else.. nursing is something i really really wanna do as a career.. but i dont know if i'll like it as time passes.. as a matter of fact.. im starting to hate it.. its only half a sem and im thinking this way? isit only me? now that my cuzzie has stopped nursing., the family would definitely be putting the "future nurse" dream on me right? but what if i quit halfway thru? a 2nd disappointment prior to my cuzzie.. I talked to mummy earlier today about this.. and only told her half of what i really felt.. i can see that mama justs wants me to complete nursing no matter what.. but i have something i wanna try and go for which only one knows of but i noe its a confirm NONO for both mom and dad.. whats the use of telling them anyway.. plus they keep rushing me to sign the damn freakin bond.. i noe the money is impt., but isnt what i wanna really do even more impt?

2008-06-01T16:57:00.005+08:00

My last project for this term is gonna be next week.. Yippee..!! its only as quarter of my first year and im already sick and tired of presentations.. lols.. we had some group and individual pics taken for the project and i was goofing around while they were taking them..

LOLS.. fun..

Had NYP judo bbq ytd.. it was ok.. not fantastic.. but i thank yaozong(is that how his name is spelt?), graduated NYP judoka and NURSE for bbq-ing my food.. i was whining and whining about not having food cos i was plain lazy.. not wanting to take my own plate and go to the pit to get food.. but it was also cos the year one boys were all waiting there for the food to be done..! so let them have the food first.. LOLS.. if not they quit judo.. lols.. SO I COMPLAINED TO JAYA AND ASKED HIM TO BBQ SOME FOR ME.. LOLS.. and he didnt.. lols.. instead yaozong gave me a plate of food..!! YAY..!! haha.. but poor him.. he was bbq-ing the food the whole night thru but he didnt eat the thruout the whole bbq.. he claimed that he was "dieting".. and he dont eat after 7pm.. lols.. auntie's jelly was yummie too..!! haha.. met quite alot of the graduated judokas.. but several of them werent there too.. daniel.. brenda.. and so on.. WHY DIN THEY COME???????????

2008-05-28T22:14:00.003+08:00

its been a busy week... saturday was like a total general worker day.. cleaning shifting and doing loads of tiring stuff.. but it was pretty fun.. cos after such a long time., i got to see my cuzzies.!!

ERM.. MR ABDUL RASHAD.. WHAT ARE U DOING UNDER THE BED POSING LIKE THAT.?

ERM.. SO.. MR ABDUL RASHAD.. NOW YOU'RE TRYING TO BE.. A BULL? oh ya.. btw.. WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR TEETH??? LOLS...

Luckily after all the hard work we went to sakae sushi to eat..!! yippeee..!!

the past few days have been horrid.. so.. my first ICA went well.. sm0o0o0o0o00thly.. LUCKY..!! haha.. but im losing my voice now.. im having flu~~~.. sianded.. ahahaa.. my voice now is S~eX~aY~e.. heex.. wad to do.. next week, loads to do.. test and 1 more ICA.. how~~~ die die die.. haha.. i hope they go welll.. BUT.. this saturday.. JUDO BBQ..!! yippeeee... hahas.. i shall pass my whole saturday without bookss.. lols..

just this for now! ciao~

2008-05-22T23:56:00.004+08:00

IVP is over... DUH~~ i lost.. i lost fair and square.. i din train submission much.. and i still fight as if at nationals in secondary school.. turtle-ing once i get onto the ground.. shameful me.. anyways.. my opponent - yi min - won champ and MVP.. she won all the way thru the competition.. including teams.. cool~~~ haha.. its ok..

anyways.. I HURT MY KNEE.!!! at first i din feel the pain.. after a night., I CANT WALK..!!!!!!!!!!!!!! or should i say., im walking with a lot of pain.. HELP.!

2008-05-17T00:04:00.004+08:00

This week has been totally hectic for me.. my brain.., instead of working better., is becoming more and more retarded.. my groups have been struggling thru projects that we totally do not understand.. CRITICAL THINKING CRITICAL THINKING CRITICAL THINKING~~~~ making me go bonkers.. lectures that i enjoy and able to sit thru it without sleeping - sociology, psychology.. lectures that i will surely make me fall asleep(from the least to the most boring excluding psych and socio) biology, critical thinking, foundation of nursing.. foundation of nursing is completely monotonous... MMM.. clinicak lab is quite fun at times.. but clinical lab is where the facilitator talks the most and practice the most.. by the time shes done., we have hardly enough time to practice.. biology lab - GOD PLEASE HELP ME...

Well~~ break btw lessons can be really boring.. so.. .. my laptop was dead.. and all i had was my hanphone., which has videos that i have watched umpteen times., songs that i've listened to umpteen times.. so i took a picture of fatin.. and like wad georgina mentioned., doesnt fatin suit the "emo" image???? LOLS..

THINGS THAT I HATE THIS WEEK.. ..
1. BIOLOGY TEST WHICH I SCORED ONLY A "C"..
2. IVP - PEOPLE WHO KNOW ME SHOULD KNOW WHY..

2008-05-08T23:10:00.002+08:00

Extremely exhausted... the whole day has been a total blur for me.. what seemed like 1 week has already been 4.. time passes really fast when ur in poly.. WHO THE HELL SAID THAT POLY LIFE IS RELAXING?!?!?! totally not enough time to study and do all the projects for all the modules..!! the only thing that keeps me going is the fact that i believe that if the others can do it, why cant i?????? jia you..!!

the coolest thing happened to me yesterday.. i went to sir elton john's concert at the singapore indoor stadium.!! OMG.. he sang a couple of old songs.. and the coolest thing was that the band threw their drumsticks and picks to the audience.. GOSH..!! i wish i had those.. elton john actually performed for about 3 hours without stopping..!! so did his band.. he's really not a legend for nothing..! ahaha... after the concert there were too many people rushing for cabs that i and xiang jian decided to walk around first before hailing for a cab for ourselves... it was really a B-E-U-tiful sight.. just that i didnt bring my camera out and couldnt get a proper picture with my handphone.. we could see the singapore flyer from there.. can u spot it from the picture?

so.. i reached home about 12++ and i wanted to eat so badly but i was too tired.. so i computer-ed for ahwhile and went to bed.. GOSH.. the consequences for that was terrible.. i went to school like a zombie.. and slept thru the 2nd half of bio lecture which is currently the most enjoyable subject to me..!! GOSH.!!

SIRONG I MISS YOU TOO..!!

2008-04-30T15:21:00.002+08:00

Tmr would be zeezee's 24th birthday.!! LOLS.. but tmr is a public holiday... so we gave zee a surprise cake.. but cuz we bought the cake so0o0o0o0 early in the morning., we could only buy a simple simple cake.. haha.. but before we could give zee her cake., we broke the cake into half when we put the candle in cuz the top layer of the cake was hasrd chocolate.. haha.. but nvm.. we had fun.. we were supposed to do our project using this time.. but.. NVM~~~ hahah..

We~~~~ the future nurses~~~ lols.. can you believe it.??

2008-04-24T19:06:00.003+08:00

blogging after such a long time again.. so many changes.. Shing has left.. for 4 days already.. feeling numb about it.. i guess cuzx im already mentally prepared.. huge scene i created when he left.. school has started 2 weeks ago.. my schedule sucks.. what can i do about it anyway? so im just gonna leave it.. projects already piling up.. judo is fine.. IVP is next month.. totally (-.-") going crazy.. my cousin in phils has ran away from home AGAIN.. what the hell is the matter with her.. she's been missing for 3 days now.. what to do? would she come home once she has run out of $$..?? NYP has a blood donation event too.. my first time donating blood.. and i still had to have parents consent (-.-") .. .. quite fun.. out of the thousands of students., only like 300++ has donated so far.? there should be more than that..!! but alot of them couldnt donate too.. those underweight people., thin veins., those who took some medicines or piercings recently or wadsoever.. i havent had enough sleep..!!! but i took a comfortable 50mins sleep on the bus just now so im feeling quite energized now.. so.. im gonna continue with work now..

2008-03-24T14:16:00.002+08:00

Having worked at mini toons/bits for only 1mth++++., although it has been TERROR., i'll still miss the people there.. SOME only.. hahas.. including crystal and beads sharon., and flower shop lawrence.. LOLS.. i havent blogged for a REALLY long time.. but its because of the weird work schedules that i dont have the time to blog.. and plus., i find blogging tooooo much effort sometimes.. i only blog when i have ALOT of time like now.. school is starting sooon.. it'll start b4 i can even say "start".. looking forward to it., at the same time., scared.. again..

for now.. i'll just clean up my untidy room., which i've neglected for VERY long.. and also catch some sleep.. i slept for 14hrs ytd.. hahaha.. no more sleeping at 2++am and waking up at 4.30am just to get to work.. YiPPeee.!!

now.. saying "thank you! see you again!" to these friends of mine.!!

tze chian., me and laila..

dearest qiu bee supervisor and jenny manager..!!

janet..

chunyue., nelson..

ai ting from tam outlet., and jacky from marina square outlet..

janet and jacky..!! they're twins..!!

wendy supervisor..

nelson and me..

junli and xiao dan..

2008-02-07T21:13:00.000+08:00

went to tony romas and fish & co ytd and today.. this time its different.. i went with family..!!!!!!!!!!!!! sometimes i really get tired of going to these places to eat.. especially fish & co which shing LOVES to go to... not so much of tony romas.. i love ribs.. but shing doesnt.. i dont like fish.. but u-know.. he loves fish.. and its his money.. though i have a say.. .. i wouldnt even bother.. we'll just get into more verbal fights~~.. .. . .. so fish & co it is..

at tony romas yesterday.. i didnt really wanna upload this picture.., cos its not of much importance.. but then i realised that my auntie., at the right of the picture., was sticking out her tongue.. lols.. for wad.???

why does my mama look shocked.??

uncle barry doing this really reminds me of dobby.. from harry potter..

the 2nd day of my 3 off days has been spent doing practically nothing.. woke up in the morning., and went to granny's place for greetings.. rashad and adriana wasnt dressed in their new year clothes.. well.. u dont really need to wear new year clothes.. but at least wear something.. presentable.. rashad was wearing a really stretched singlet.. anyways we stayed there for like an hour and then headed off to downtown east where i THOUGHT we would be playing for the rest of the day.. in the end we headed for movies instead.. but we couldnt find the movie we wanted to watch.. and so we spent time at fish and co at paragon.. for like the 2hrs++ and headed home.. it reminded me when shing and i went there and i dropped my fork 3 damn times..!!! im really prone to dropping my cutlery..

im going to be totally shing-free for 3 days.. yay.?? or no yay.?

2008-02-06T15:25:00.000+08:00

My legs are aching.. my new job., doesnt allow their staff to sit down for even a second.. so i stood for 10hours., wearing shoes that were binding my foot that by the 9th hour., i was looking at the clock every minute.. WHEN WILL IT BE 11PM.??????? i was waiting for customers at the entrance of the shop when i saw someone familiar.. OMG..!! its jie..!! followed by mom., dad., uncle barry and auntie roxy who just arrived in singapore afew hours before.. they already had dinner.. but they went to the airport(i work at the airport) to have coffee as well as wait for me to knock off from work at 11pm.. but it wasnt much of a good thing because my feet hurt so bad and they still wanted to go to giant to do some last min shopping.. the crowd was like.. .. .. .. .. .. i would not wanna squeeeeeeeeze with all those people there again.. unless it was a concert or something.. PLUS..!! dad parked at the ikea carpark cos giant's carpark was full.. by that time i was practically dragging my feet.. till now.. my feet hurts..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

gotta drag myself to orchard later together with jie.. we're meeting the rest of the family for a dinner at tony romas.. which seems to be a "standard procedure" everytime uncle and auntie comes here..

cos of work im not able to meet shing so much now.. i have work ends so late and its so tiring that i can hardly wake up on time.. for vday., i'll decide again sweetie..

2008-01-31T23:15:00.000+08:00

today i woke up exceptionally early in the morning after an hour of sleep just to help jie with her project.. it went quite well.. except that my cell rang in the middle of the recording.. sorry people.. i shall blame the person who called... SHINGO..!!!! hahahahass... thanks anyways.. this is the studio within temasek poly.. peeps who may have chosen mass com.. this is what you may do during your course.. thanks to jerry.. for helping me and my sis AGAIN..

my mom's fragile hand got burnt today by the iron.. poor thing..

went to kbox sometime ago.. with frens.. hahas.. I had alot of fun.. i mean I had alot of fun.. so i dunno about the rest.. hahas..

sirong jane and me

ate icecream waffle..

at pizza hut

i ate baked pasta..

jerry...

jane jerry and zhe yan.. zhe yan didnt sing a single word.. he wasted his 16++ bucks on tidbits and drinks.. hhahahahaha.. thanks peeepppsss...

2008-01-25T15:55:00.001+08:00

I've been really lazy recently.. so i havent been blogging.. finally the nerve wrecking days are over.. finally recieved my results.. i havent been sleeping well as well.. my bedtime nowadays are from about 5am-1+pm.. i cant sleep seem to sleep at night.. i end up computering or tv-ing till i get sleepy.. anyways.. my results are really horribly disappointing to me.. especially humans.. which i have really worked doubly hard on.. 1 A, 3 Bs, 1 C, 1 D.. i guess my amaths was moderated from an F9 to D7.. cool eh.? i was s0o0o0o freaking prepared to retain or something.. i NEVER EVER wanna go through O levels again... nowadays i really cant stop listening to songs.. seriously.. there're a few videos that i keep watching or listening to over and over again because their songs are really nice..

一眼瞬間 by 蕭敬騰 and 張惠妹

and there's this talented girl charice from the philippines.. her voice is amazing..

duet by charice and kyuhyun from super junior...

she went to korea again and sang again.. the first part she sang alone.. the 2nd song she sang with a korean R&B singer lena park a.k.a park jung hyun..

miwodo dashi hanbon.. korean song.. sang by suju's K.R.Y + Siwonnie and Eunhyukie..

timeless.. sang by jang ri in and xiah junsu from DBSK.. there's also an english version sang by kelly clarkson and justin guarini from american idol..

keep holding you.. duet by hyesung from shinhwa and sunmin... there's a japanese version of this song by sunmin and kubota too...

amazing voices eh.?

2008-01-15T21:11:00.000+08:00

its been long since i posted.. lols.. i jus had a class chalet.. quite fun.. the room was really big.. although it still couldnt accomodate all of us., but it felt cozy.. hahas.. i reached the chalet rather tired.. because of the cca fair and judo training.. but when i reached the chalet i jus took a bath and felt so0o0o much better.. hahas.. i barely slept on both nights.. hahas.. cos there was no space.. and also because of stubborn people who wanted to drink till they got drunk.. and when they got drunk they really acted like little babies.. goodness.. went to escape to play., but got interrupted by the rain.. hahas.. the bbq was great too.. although i didnt really spend much time at the pit.. cos i was having a really bad tummy ache..

i couldnt lie to shing so i told the truth about everything that happened at chalet.. lols.. and im thankful that shing understands..!!

thanks to the people who worked hard to organize this chalet..!! thanks to jane and gavin.. and to the teachers who came., mr kiong., mrs cho and family., ms tan and husband., mr foo...!! thanks to mr kiong who contributed some funds., and to mr foo who bought 10tubs of Häagen-Dazs ice cream.. which costs a bomb.. thanks to jon ong.. who cleared up the mess of the drunkards.. and to everyone who cleared up the house in the morning.. thank you.!!!!

2008-01-03T22:12:00.000+08:00

Went to NYP for training yesterday.. quite fun.. i miss judo ALOT.. havent had training in a long long long time.. LOLS.. but they were playing too much.. like jaya said "guys.! stop talking.! and girls.! stop giggling.!" hahas.. only 1 more training before their grading and they were still way behind time.. jia you..!!!!!!! the training gound is now so small.. i changed in the store room.. !! !! !! goodness... hahas... nvm.. i went to work today.. and it didnt go so well.. but its ok.. i stood for the whole day..!! lucky shing came to accompany me during lunch.. going to the doctor to take a look at my hands tmr.. its getting worse.. sian..

2008-01-01T00:18:00.000+08:00

im gonna make this short and sweet.. cos im having a very bad headache now..

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE..!! its the year 2008..!! remember your new year resolutions and dun forget to fulfill them..!! i wish everybody the best of health, and a great year ahead..!! and for those starting JC soon., the best of luck..

i was supposed to celebrate new year., but there are too many KJs' around., that my plans are destroyed.. sicko.. so i had a normal dinner with my family., except mummy asked everyone to drink.. cos daddy bought wine.. dont ask me what wine.. i seriously dunno.. i had a headache b4 i drank.. and after i drank., it sorta became worse.. the alchohol content was rather high.. cos mummy also felt hot after afew sips..

the extra oily hand behind is jie's.. after that i sorta couldnt handle so much anymore and mum asked me to finish up wadeva she poured.. i drank it too fast.??? so i poured this another half into another cup with ice and added some 7up to it..

after dinner.???? OMG.. i had nothing to do.. walk here and there and here and there.. sms on the phone., talked on the phone., tidied my room.. watched videos.. goodness.!! time was passing too slowly.. haiyo..

*impt* 5 things shingo said he'll do.. (and he betta do it b4 his head goes rolling)

1) dont play around so much.. be more serious and plan ahead..

2) strive hard for uni..!!

3) force me to slim down.. (i doubt he can do it.. if he could, i'll be skinny long ago..lols.. plus he's the one who keeps asking me to eat when we go out.. wahhahahha.. i noe its not an excuse.. but.. ya..)

4) stop spending money like a crazy fool..

5).. wad was it..?? i forgot..

k wadeva.. my head is really pain.. toodles.. happy New yEAR..!!! WEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..!!!!

2007-12-27T15:55:00.000+08:00

yay.!! back to blogging..

christmas eve.!! yay..!! half day of work.. after that out to enjoy..!! but the thing is... .. .. i got sacked on christmas eve.!! lols. its ok.. i went out with yeeling.. walk and walk and walk.. marina square.. .. to suntec.. then i went to bedok to buy munchy donuts home.. on the other hand., i met shing and we sat and sat and sat for the whole day... together with his 3 other ridiculous buddies.. ate loads of pizza and watched movie.. which person's heart wouldnt feel warm.???? lols.. sweeet.. lols..

christmas day.. did nothing but stay at home and slack.. watch some tv., some videos.. some youtube.. lols.. rest b4 starting with a new job in the new year.. woooot...!! haiyo.. but jus staying at home for 1 day is making me feel so bored.. hahahass..

today.. i did nothing but computering.. and watching tv.. nowhere to go.. singapore is so small.. wherever we go., we see the same stuff over and over again.. sians..

2007-12-23T15:52:00.000+08:00

Hees.. yesterday was the childrens competiton cum mini Xmas celebration party... OMG.. i was supposed to meet yeeling., 7.45am at tampines interchange.. then its like.. wad the heck..!! i woke up at 7.40am.. i woke up by my HP..!! sensei called me.. if sensei didnt call i wouldnt have woken up.. so in the end yeeling waited for me for 45mins.. SORRY.. and THANKS..!! lols.. im so envious of the sea games medal..!! its like big., and heavy.. lols.. and the most impt thing its from sea games larh can.. lols..

anyways.. pictures from the childrens' competiton..!!

hees.. the seniors busily preparing for the competition..

a sensei teaching some throws..

Wooooooo.. children fighting...!!

than i went out with Qiuling.. HEAVY RAIN..!! spoiler.. my shoes were soaked and smelly.. new shoe somemore.. (>.<") but we went out and didnt buy anything.. lols..

as for "you".. wadever~..

2007-12-21T21:52:00.000+08:00

okay.. people have been complaining that i havent been blogging.. but its cuz i have no time.. even if i have time., i wouldnt blog.. i'd be doing other things like cleaning up my room., getting my make-up off my face before my eyes closes etc... for like the past 1 month that i havent blogged., ALOT of things have happened that i wish to say., however., toooooooo long to be written..

DUH.. most of the stuff is about xiaozhu.. i had a fun time chasing him., however., becuz of some kinda management problem., it made chasing him really a HELL of a "fun" time.. in my opinion., his concert was awesome., except that it was too short the the stage was too small and simple.. during the 2-3 days that he was here for his concert., i didnt see him when chasing him.. NOT AT ALL... Only at the airport.. when he was about to leave..

again he came recently.. the present that i was supposed to give him on the first day he was in town is now MISSING..!! lols.. i passed it to bifang to pass it to him.. but i heard from her she didnt manage to give it to him.. i dont wish to know where that present is now anyway.. luckily on the day he was leaving., at the airport i managed to give him the another present and Xmas card.. i noe the security guards were jus trying to protect him., but please., we wont hurt him.. the security kept pushing me away when i wanted to give the card and present to him.. because i put the card on top of the present., and the present was smaller than the card., he couldnt see that i had a present for him.. he barely managed to reach my card.. and when he got the card., the security pushed my hand with the present so hard it made me wanna choke them on the neck.. ALL 4 OF THEM(the security guards).. i stared at them so hard(people say my angry look kills.. if it does.,. why didnt the security guards ~~~..???).. and man.. xiaozhu walks really fast can.. luckily he stopped and turned back to take my gift to him from me.. i mean i dun mind that he doesnt noe who i am or wadeva.. as long as im jus another fan of his.. im happy.. but wad i really hate is getting scolded by other fans.. for really no reason.. pUrlLEEESzzzee.. i wouldnt hurt xiaozhu also right.. those who noe wad happened would understand wad im saying.. im starting to wonder when i'll see him again.. but im really contented to see him in person.. so yea..

but then again.. the most happy part of this whole chasing thing is to meet really nice jiejies'.. lols.. Weifen., weifang., fuzhen., bifang., jennifer., joyce., and xiuhui.. thank you guys for everything..!! they are really people who are are willing to share.. mm mm .. i dun really noe how to explain wad i mean by willing to share.. and they really take care of me.. im the biggest in size., but younger than everybody there.. LOLS..!!

Jennifer went to taiwan recently and she bot us a souvenir..!! and this is mine..!! a little pig with a mirror inside.!!

fuzhen helps me write the a letter to xiaozhu.. cos you noe~~ my chinese~~ lols..

谢谢你了哦。。！！

笨蛋。。你给我小心一点。。我忍你很久了。。你对我说话最好是客气一点。。 what i wanna do is my own problem and nothing to do with you.. if you got smth hiding from me you betta own up and not let others hint to me.. its too obvious you have a motive.. and im not that bloody hell stupid.. 一整天玩玩玩。。and please.. dont expect everything to be done your way k.. im not as free as you are.. i gotta work.. if you wanna meet me you come down to expo larh.. meet you so far away.. you think i can fly isit.. 6pm finish work 6pm reach wherever you wan me to reach.. A**ho**... the problem is you and you still give me this attitude..

I'll continue bloggin another time.. blood boiling..

2007-11-18T13:50:00.000+08:00

ookies.. im finally blogging about the 20th anni dinner and my whole day yesterday.. friday we had our 20th anni dinner cum grad night dinner.. lols.. everything and everybody were so pretty and handsome.. lols.. had a great time.. though the food wasnt that fantastic.. lols.. sirong came to my house to change and all that.. then we went to jane's house.. jane was so pretty.!! so was gloria.. gloria won ms sunshine..!! hahas.. coolies.. towards the end of the party the dancing started.. and amin kept pulling me to dance.. but i didnt want to.. and when i say i didnt want to., i DO NOT WANT TO DANCE.. lols.. after the party everything became boring.. lols.. we went home straight.. amin sent me home.. thanks.!!

goodness.. im really fat.. hahahas.. nvm.. i gotta except it.. lols..

me and winnie..

me and guiling

me and fuyee

me and yuanzhen..

me and peijun..

me and jeremiah..

ms see., the VP and me.!!

amin and me..

me and kaijing..

lols.. and i went to NYP ytd.. i had to wake up 6.30 in the morning.. i asked zhiwei to come over to my house at 7.30 and he was late.. AGAIN.. lucky sensei came to fetch at 8.. by the time we reached NYP., everybody was still not there.. the room was not open too.. goodness.. sensei kong was already there too.. how can they make the coaches wait.?? lols.. senpai chua was there too.. he was going to be 1 of the referees.. hahas.. i kept getting screamed at by him.. lols.. "LOIS.. AIYO HAVENT ANNOUNCE THE NEXT BOUT AH.???" not easy orh.. the bout was so messy.. all last min written.. hahas.. but lucky got weixiong(if im not wrong).. my saviour for the day.. to help me.. lols.. if not i'll be date.. i've lost my voice now.. cos i did alot of shouting at NYP.. goodness..!! hahas.. we took a team photo at NYP.. I WANT IT..!! JAYA.!! WHERE'S MY PHOTO.?????? lols.. im feeling really bad cheeka didnt get to play for the individual's.. cos of miscommunication.. i havent took individual photo's with them and sensei already wanted to leave for class.. *sob*.. so i oni mangage to take 2.. SOB..

xinyi., wanshi and me..

xinyi and wanshi..

weixiong(my saviour), wee yang(MVP for the day).. and me..

then we went to children's class.. sensei stan was there for the first class.. hahas.. i was the one taking the pic.. so im not in the pic.. lols.. this is only the first class.. lols.. i dunno why we didnt take photo for the 2nd and 3rd class..

the cutiesss..

me and the BIG BIG BIG han boooonn... lols..

senpai neo.. practicing his kata..

and mark too.. praticing his kata..

i got to see the new dojo.. it is big.. lols.. with 2 toilets.. lols.. i took a 40 wink at the dojo.. and then went for dinner together with sensei and auntie at east point.. and taufik was having his autograph session.. hahas.. so i took a couple of photos..

interesting day aye.??

shing dun angry le hao ma.? its jus a small thing nia.. 小的跟你说对不起。。不会再有下一次了。。dun liddat arh..

2007-11-15T14:57:00.000+08:00

2 consequtive days of not sleeping made me really seriously tired.. i went out amin in the morning to choose him clothes for prom.. and then met with girls at marine parade.. after which we went to bugis to shop a lil and then went back to tanjong katong for a short interview.. lols.. after which we went to east point YET AGAIN to get some dinner.. i went hope really really really exhausted.. but i HAD TO, and MUST finish a making a present for someone(those who know me well willl know who). and as i did it., i made a HUGE mistake and had to redo everything.. with limited amount of time, its now an ugly present, but nevamind.. lols.. it was my birthday, yet i was making a present for somebody else.. LOLS..!! so i had no sleep..

by the time i finished the present, it was 6.45 in the morning.. so i prepared myself and went to the airport to send weifen weifang and bifang off to taiwan.. *sob* they pangseh me..!! lols.. i also wanna go.. haha.. then i headed to simei MRT to meet qiuling and sirong.. coincidentally, kaijing and gloria were there too.!! lols.. we went to far east to shop., then to cine.. to heeren., and back home.. i reached home and rested for like 15mins.. and went out to east point again to meet val and mell.. then went to katong to meet coach.. lols..

what i hated on my birthday.. i was sitting, waiting for the mrt at tanah merah when wind blew so hard something went into my eyes.. i took out one side of my contact lens but i din bring the container for it.. and it was so dry i counldnt put it back.. i held my contact lens in my hands from tanah merah all the way till i reached the airport's toilet.. goodness... really VERY VERY "sway" can..

sorry i cant go there with you.. parents sure dun allow.. sorry nehs..

2007-11-12T19:08:00.000+08:00

yay.. finally prepared all my pictures to blog blog blog.!! hurray.! my video files toooooooo big to put into youtube.. it takes such a long time i'd rather not upload it.. lols..

小猪的签票会。。kaaaawaaaiiii nehs..

than at the airport on saturday morning..

走了耶。。

好期待他在11月尾再来。。可是，我要做工。。请假也只能请一天。。嗨。。

ytd.. went to granny's place..!! yippeeeeee..!! i will always wanna drink her soup.. its like... cannot be compared to anywhere else's soup..

from granny's place.. u see the sky at night.. its gonna rain.!!

and you also see st andrew's JC..

my cuzzieez.!! this boy is only K2.. goodness..!! he's already wearing glasses..!!

jie jie accompanies the kids play sparkles..

2007-11-12T00:09:00.001+08:00

im rather in a bad mood right now. Photoshop is gone from my computer because everything was reformatted when it was sent for repair. so now i cant copyright my xiaozhu pictures to be put on my blog.. idiotic. i felt rather empty yesterday after xiaozhu left. LOLS. some people may think its dumb. but im just saying what i felt.
Yesterday morning i met with weifen to wait for xiaozhu at the airport. then he came and bla bla bla.. as per normal. but then he started to ask where are those that were chasing him in the maxis' and then we noticed that they were not around. xiaozhu then asked to call them cuz he was leaving soon. apparently he was waiting for them. by the time he went pass the police check, the fans were still not there. so when he checked in, he paced up and down where we could see him through the glass. FINALLY, u hear girls shrieking "xiaozhu.!! wo men dao le.!!." once xiaozhu saw them, he waved a last goodbye then left. Now the girls who just arrived started to cry. Like DUH.!! i would cry if i were them too. jus imagine spending so much money and time chasing him, and u dun even manage to talk to him b4 he goes off. i believe xiaozhu wanted to do something but he cant come out anymore. so he asked one of his friend or manager or somthing who havent checked in to tell us something. since i cant confirm what he said, i shall not write it here. but i noe xiaozhu did say "对不起".
something very ridiculous was his flight was unknown. i mean. this time seriously nobody knew wad time and which flight he was taking. we just went to the airport on time for the first flight from taipei. and i heard that his mini bus had curtains.!! and they were closed.!! like ****. i heard that xiaozhu always would make sure his mini bus's windows are not tinted or have closed curtains. but wad the hell is happening..?!?! because i didnt chase this time round, i dunno wads really going on. but when he arrived at the airport, his mini bus's windows were tinted too.!! goodness.. the fans who were chasing actually lost him too.!! at least 5 maxi's chasing him, and nobody saw him leave the hotel.!! *ANGRY*

thanks again to bifang and weifen..!! 姐姐们really takes care of me..

2007-11-09T23:57:00.000+08:00

Today was s0o0o0 fun. But seriously tiring.
Woke up in the morning to meet weifen and weifang at the airport. Xiaozhu's schedule in Singapore was unknown. there was no info put up on the internet. So many of us tried our luck. we just went to the airport at 11. that was the first Taipei flight coming in for the day. i reached first, and saw nobody and no barricades. so when weifen and weifang arrived we decided to go to T1 instead. HOPE.!! we saw the barricades. but, the Br flight that was arriving at 12++ wasnt the one he was taking so i had so go first while my dear frens continued to wait for the CI flight which apparently was the one he was coming in, and landed at 2++

So. i prepared to go out of the house at 4.30 to bugis. reaching there, winnie smsed me to ask me if i was there. and so i met a whole load of 406 babes.! winnie, jiayi, kaiwen, kitty and jane. LOLS. then i met mell.. and also coincidentally met zhijian, and his gf, and marvin and his gf. LOLS. How small is the world man.?? hahas. took lotsa pictures and videos. which would be put up in awhile.

THANKS TO:
weifen, weifang, bifang, fuzhen, and mell.!! thanks for everything.!!

2007-11-05T12:52:00.000+08:00

i consider the O levels OVER.. "over" 怎么拼.?? O-V-E-R .! Over.!! OH OVER.!! LOLS.. for the next 2 weeks i've planned my schedule.. starting tomorrow..

tuesday, 6th nov - going out out out out with sirong and qiuling..
friday, 9th nov - xiaozhu autograph session
saturday, 10th nov - children's class and saraswathi's deepavali dinner
wednesday, 14th nov - my birthday
friday, 16th nov - 20th anni dinner cum grad night
saturday,17th nov - NYP judo competition
saturday, 1st dec - 小猪罗志祥 - show on stage/一枝独秀 concert
friday to saturday, 11th to 13th jan - class chalet
monday, 15th jan - Os results..

but for now., offfff to sslleeepp..

2007-10-11T21:46:00.000+08:00

not even a week to spare and the exams are here.!! scared scared.. im studying hard.. but not hard enough.. anyway.. i havent been blogging and i've been feeling a tiny bit angry about something.. there're been a really BIG bully.. GIRLS.. PLEASE BEWARE OF SOME ****ing BASTARD GUYS AROUND PLEASE. baka.. kare damashimasu tanin.. damn asshole.. dont get decieved so easily k..

many scary things have happened too.. dad came home in the middle of the afternoon a couple of days ago and he said he saw a man under a van on the road.. like. .. shaking.. or should i say going to die.. dad came home feeling unwell after seeing that accident.. then the accident was on the newspaper ytd.. the young guy who was only 19, apparently working at Mcdonalds at tampines mart was on his way delivering when he met with the accident. 阿娘喂。。i cant even imagine seeing this kinda stuff.. and just imagine i really want so much to become a nurse.. its not that im afraid to see blood., or accidents or broken bones.. im really afraid to see somebody dying.. or suffering.. sccaarrrryy..

okies.. for those who dont know this band., this band is Super junior.. it consists of 13 members in the group.. Alot rite.? i was really pretty impressed by this group's chemistry., their live singing.. impressive.. and in this particular song., their junior henry came out in the middle of the song to do a violin solo.. dancing at the same time.. watch it..! LOLS..

2007-09-29T19:42:00.000+08:00

I went for tuition and childrens class today again after having a one week break. sensei gave me a little gift from hong kong. including 1 which is a handphone chain that has a solar panel which makes light blink on the chain. i'll treat it like a 守护我的一个 chain.. LOLS.. SHINGO.. see..e..e..e.e.eee... my jie bought me a 转角*遇到爱 novel and Levis sneakers.. coach bought me something meaningful.. u nehhhss..??? LOLS.. im only joking.. come back safely.. U and stupid fredddyy and friends better take care of yourselves arh..

2007-09-28T16:53:00.000+08:00

i jus read an article on some girls beating up another girl for as long as a cig took to burn up.. to me its like.. .. 长大把孩子们。！！幼稚的行为。！！like this you're only asking for 不必要的麻烦。。 plus several of them still video the assault and pass the video around.!! 我的天啊。！！ ridiculous.. im sorry but im so against this kinda acts.. Because i dont understand why these people are proud of their outrageously bad behaviour.

its about 3 weeks to Os.. and people around me who used to be very playful are starting to study really hard. coaching starts this coming monday this wednesday the week after.. afterthat.? hols till Os.? i really dont know either. the school is getting pretty blur about the schedules. i mean. NOT THE STUDENTS.. the teachers.!! 2 periods of MT lesson became chemistry period for me because the MT teachers didnt come to class.. except for Band 1. band 2, 3 and 4 teachers didnt come and the students also didnt bother to get them from the office. when i questioned my form teacher who is also my MT teacher why he didnt come to class., he claimed he didnt know there was MT period. Is that a valid excuse for a teacher.? but nvm. we all forgive him since we used that periods for studying other subjects.

science and history bandings are out. 5 science classes.. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5. i've never heard of band 5 before LOLS.. i really dont like the idea of banding since my class is used to having a teacher for 7 of us. but nvm. good things are meant to be shared. BUT I REALLY HATE HISTORY BANDING.!! mr foo said we couldnt be banded bacause there are only 3 history teachers for 5 classes.. so we gotta share our mr foo with 2 other classes.!! 不可以不可以不可以。！！！我不要。！！it would make asking questions very very inconvenient since there are s0o0o0o0o many and FAR To0o0o0o0 many people.!!

anyway everybody who is taking Os... 加油。！！

2007-09-25T16:33:00.000+08:00

aiyoyo.. no school would accept me now.. or should i say no course would accept me..
why.?
my results:
english paper 1: 36/60(40%)
english paper 2: 32/50(40%)
english oral : 32/40(20%)
english total : 65.6% - B3

MT paper 1 : 44/70
MT paper 2 : 25/70
MT oral : i dunno
MT LC : i dunno
MT total : 57% - C5(this was what the HOD told me)

E.maths paper 1: 53/100(50%)
E.maths paper 2: 52/80(50%)
E.maths total : 59% - C5

i was utterly disappointed with this E.maths paper.. seriously.!! OMGooOOoOOdneess..!! this was the paper i practiced for the most and i gave myself this kinda results.. but still im to blame.

physics P1: 15/20
physics P2: 44/65
Physics P5: 8/15
Physics total: 67%

Chemistry P1: 11/20
Chemistry P3:
Chemistry P5: 14/15
Chemistry total:

total combined science:

history elective: 30/50
Social studies: 30/50

total for combined Humanities: 60% - B4

OK.. now for english and 3 other subjects my score is : 17
i hope my chemistry paper 3 would allow my science to get a 3..
IF i really get a B3., then my total aggregate would be 20.. OH FOR GOODNESS SAKE..!! which course would accept me.!!!!

LOIS CHAN..!! JIAYOU NEHS.!! and same to all others taking Os.!!

2007-09-19T23:11:00.000+08:00

My acitvities for today:

- a.maths paper 2.

- go 18 chefs for lunch

- "computering" for the rest of the day till

- i went to meet mell and val at night.

2 contradicting things of today:

- at school Mrs. Mani asked if i had put on weight cuz i look fatter.

- at 18chefs uncle benny said i had slimmed down.(this is obviously false)

3 thing i really hate today:

- my head is so heavy. i think due to my hair. i had headache for the whole day.

- the weather is so damn hot.

- i hate the fact that i do not have enough money to buy xiaozhu's tshirt.

1 thing i love today:

- the fact that i dun have to go to school tomorrow.

i felt very "sway".. i sat consequtively on 2 non-aircon buses which are so uncommon nowadays. and like duh.. in the sweltering heat., i came home perspiring and my head was so freaking heavy. but im also very lucky not to be in other countries like the phils for now.. if i stayed there for life i'd probably shave my head bald so that my head wouldn't trap the heat.

to me now, the spirit in school., at home., and practically everyone's spirits are sO0o0o0Oo down.!! wads the matter.! cheeeeR up peepPs.!! its jusT the O levels.. its jus the shortage of money..!! its jus some minor problems that are part and parcel of life.. oh my goodness i cant believe im saying this because im the one who cant cope.!! help..!! its about another month b4 Os.. and more and more problems are starting to pile up at home that i jus feel like living my life out of home for a while. just give me 2 months. i cannot seem to leave home without worrying about home. though i may not seem like it. ok wadeva. LOIS CHAN.. LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE.. you have great friends and family.

i thank god every single day for everything he gives me..

i thank shing too...

2007-09-18T14:25:00.000+08:00

oHmigooShii..!! there would be a big increase in electricity bill for our household from mondays to fridays 5-6pm because my show 娱乐百分百 clashes with my mama's pang ako sayo show.. why why why..?!?! LOLS.. her show was supposed to be from 5.30 to 6.30.. and now it has a new timeslot.. damn damn..

anyways.. tmr is the last day of the prelims.. getting the results would be of a terror to be than taking the exam itself.. everytime a collect any major exam result., i would sorta have a minor depression as the after effect.. but this time i have no time to suffer from that depression.!! LOLS.. because i have a higher hurdle to jump over.. and its already the very last leg of the race.. my room is now similar to a pig's sty due to the "studying".. my boooks are everywhere.. my bed is not made up in the morning., the chair has books.. the floor hass books.. my queen sized bed is filled with ironed clothes that has still not been transferred to the closet., magazines., my bag., books.. etc. i myself cannot stand the sight of my room that i have shifted my matress out of the room to sleep on instead.. but it would definitely be cleared on thurs.. which is a holiday for me since there's no school and the exam is over.. LOLs..

lllOOOneeellyy. im sooo LLooooNNEellyy.. iiii havEE nOOObooodYYY.. FOORrr mYY oOOOOoOO~~~ oooOOwwwnn..!!.. .. Wahahahaha... JIe's overseas.., shing's overseas.. everybody's overseas... everyone except me.. LOLS.. SHING YOU BUY SOMETHING BACK FOR ME HOR..!! LOLS..

2007-09-15T20:20:00.000+08:00

After a super long day of Amaths..!! yayayyayayayay.!! finally can upload some xiaozhu pictures.. these were taken on saturday.. my friend help me take de cos i couldnt go on saturday.. sob.. nvm nvm..

hehe.. autograph session at plaza sing..

dancing dancing..

wa.. making sure make-up and hair nice nice..

sians.. going airport lerh.. he seeemss so upset.. i just hope he wont mind that not many pp went.. but that is also because many people didnt know about it larh can..

at the aiirporrt..

go in lerh.. hais.. bye bye..

k.. now go study lerh lOLs..

2007-09-14T13:32:00.000+08:00

finally blogging aie.? Oh my goodness.. this week has LLLIIITTTEEERRAAAAAAAALLLLLYYY been a BLAST.. goodness gracious mother of shit.. damn the whole week of exams have beeen worse then a nightmare.. on monday i was saying "how i wish today is friday." on tues., i said the same thing.. and i also said the same thing everyday till today.. hais.. monday maths test., mrs mani scolded me for leaving alot of spaces between questions on the paper.. BUT IT IS BECAUSE I USED 1 PAGE FOR 1 QUESTION.!! and i made a dodo mistake of not riting "k" for direct proportion. so i have gotten bad feedback for my maths paper.. i asked Mrs florence lee about my physics paper.. she said generally our class have done badly.. ok.. another bad feedback.. for ss and history.. i almost inconceivably finished the paper.. wadeva.. mother tongue paper was like "duh.. gone case"..

I SERIOUSLY NEED TO COMPLAIN ABOUT AN AUNTIE TODAY WHO WAS SUBSTANTIALLY IMPOLITE..

yes i do agree that we the youths should give alot of respect to the senior citizens.. HOWEVER., this does not give the right of the aunties and uncles and ah gong ah ma to be insolent to us.. today i was on the bus in the morning on the way to school and i was listening to my mp3(which was not loud.. i could still hear the surroudings) and reading some science notes.. like always, i sat on the seat beside to isle(the seats are in pairs, one beside to window and he other beside the isle.), that was also just beside the door(just in case i the bus is crowded, it would be easier to get down.) so the bus was getting rather crammed and i saw a shadow that covered the light from my book and it didnt move away. then i felt a kick. i looked up and this aunty was staring at me. and she ungraciously squeeeeeezed to try to get to the seat beside me. and it was like duh..!! u cant get in because i havent moved to let you in.. and she gave me an annoyed look., followed by 'eh.!'.. before she continued., i moved aside, banging her knee which made her even more furious, and let her in to the seat beside me..(she was so lucky i was in a good mood.. otherwise i would have made a sinister remark) goodnesssss me..!!

IM SORRY TO FUSS SOMEMORE my poor bloggie.. but im feeling alot of dissatisfaction..

I MYSELF., I DARE TO SAY., AM VERY VERY COCKY.. although i know its also totally not rite to comment on somebody's personal character outloud here., but i really cannnnooott stand to the extreme materialism., and cocky character that many youths these days have(that includes me).. i cant believe ive actually met my match in being cocky.. you may ask me., materialistic and cocky as in.? AS IN.. when u dont have something that others have., dont pretend you have it.. and then when people finds out that you dont have that., you would only embarrass yourself.. or when you dont know something., dont pretend you know it.. because if you really dont know it., u embarrass yourself yet again. dont fuss about a crease on your shirt., or a strand of hair out of line., or 1 or 2 pimples on your face.!! damn.. i hate this.. instead., oneself can be cocky about something that they really have and show it off..

and to those who love to nag at me about studying then brag about how much they studied and how much you know., and yet still do badly., PLEEEAASSEE.. stop.. you're embarrassing yourself.

anyway.. enough of complains..!! i havent put up pics of xiaozhu when he came to singapore on friday aie.? coming up sooOoOoOnnnn.. cuz now im seriously very lazy.. my brain isnt functioning too well after too much brainwork..

2007-09-12T10:27:00.000+08:00

SHINGO

CAN

YOU

STOP

ASKING

UPDATE

BLOG.?!?!

I'LL

UPDATE

AFTER

EXAMS.!!

2007-09-08T22:40:00.000+08:00

yay..!! fetch xiaozhu luo zhi xiang at the airport yesterday.. if im not wrong his plane landed early.. and the maxi cab havent come.. there were quite a number of fans waiting for him there..

lols.. he stayed at swissotel.. and the thing i found really cool was that.. our maxi cab came late.. but we got to the hotel b4 he reached.. i think he made a few rounds b4 going to the hotel.. and he was sleeping.. tired aie.? and also.. we fans didnt noe where he was going next.. but the cab uncle knew his next moves.. whether he was coming out of the hotel.. or going to the next venue.. cool..

wow.. there were ALOT of maxi cabs after xiaozhu's mini bus.. LOLS.. and the fans say this was considered little already.. hahahaha.. LOOK AT THE NUMBER OF CABS WAITING FOR XIAOZHU..!! this was only some.. xiaozhu was at the hotel preparing to meet the press.. and after a long wait.. he came out in a super shuai black suit.. din manage to get a proper photo cos of the number of security blocking him.. LOLs.. he went to raffles hotel to meet the press.. which came out soon after on channel 8 news.. while he was still inside., i was in the maxi cab watching that news.!! LOLS.. din manage to watch baifenbai cos the maxi couldnt recieve channel U.. haha.. wait and wait and wait...

finally he came out.. he went to great world city for his movie premiere which didnt even last 15mins.. then went to esplanade's No Signboard to have his dinner.. then he went back to the hotel.. and thats it for the day..!! during the chase he was so cute.. i cannot describe what he did here.. too complicated.. LOLS..

i heard today that he went for the autograph session at 12.. and was already at the airport at 2pm.. so quick.? hahas.. nvm.. he was so cute..

the best thing i ever had was the 2 new frens i made..!! weifen and Fuzhen.. they are so0o0o nice.. seriously.. 姐姐们。。谢了。！

2007-09-06T15:37:00.000+08:00

time passes so fast aie.? its already thursday. 2 months more and O levels is over. jus typing this makes my heart skip a beat and i can feel butterflies in my stomach.. makes me so nervous. damn it. I HAVE TO STUDY EVEN IF I DONT LIKE IT. unlike some people, who dont have to study and can go drinking and illegal motorcycle racing for the whole day. its so boring. but i bet tmr will be exciting. tmr i'll be going with some friends to fetch 唱跳天王罗志祥小猪 from the airport. yay. although i know it there will be no result to this, but nvm. he's here to promote the high school musical thingy as well as his soundtrack album for that movie.

dont treat me so nice. it jus makes me feel worse.

2007-09-01T21:19:00.000+08:00

31st august
teachers' say celebration at school was ok. but the after party was AWESOME. the 3kg cake was beautiful. it was more than enough to share among us. we had that huge cake, lots of chips, drinks. and surprisingly, there was almost full attendance that day. the cake was given to all our subject teachers and MS SANTHA came back to our class. she didnt confiscate handphones..!! haha.. the bast part was the last 10 slices of cake that was remaining. all except 8 of us left class and we needed to finish the cake. so we played this chinese game zhong ji mi ma. the losers had to eat the cake. damn. i managed to escape till the last slice. but it was rather fair. 10 pcs of cake. 8 of us. 2 of them ate 2. and the rest ate 1 each. not bad. haha. i was supposed to go home after so that i could meet my primary school frens. but in the end i went with sirong and qiuling to city hall to an IT fair that sirong wanted to go to, to buy her thumbdrive/flashdrive but after that we realised she 'shun bian' went to see her fren who was working there. haha. we were on our way to bugis then i saw my beloved mell. i was supposed to meet her only before i went to katong but i coincidentally met her at city hall.! fate.!! yea.! lols. the worst thing is that i bought skinny jeans like 2 inches bigger than my original size. plus the auntie said that after wash it would expand about another 2 inches. why did i buy.?!?! went to mells house cuz she wanted to change. and we ate dinner.! INSTANT NOODLES.!! mell doesnt know how to cook instant noodles. haha. then by the time we reached katong, training have ended. they already gave sensei the present. and i ate cake. AGAIN. black forest cake. xiang jian's mom made it. teachers day aie..

today, BORING DAY.!

2007-08-29T19:05:00.001+08:00

another post for today.. something that brought my spirit back up again: SHOW ON STAGE..!! tickets officially available.. LOLS.. yay..!!

anyway.. another thing im really very very impressed with is bianca ryan. the 12 year old girl(as of today) girl that we all see on the show "america's got talent" which actually was over ages ago. i was very impressed with her performance on the show on sunday that i looked for her videos on youtube. she actually already has an album released on november 14 2006(which happens to be my birthday..!! whatever..) called "bianca ryan"(her own name). LOLS.. im really ashamed that i didnt know of her till now.! haha.. check this out. this is really talent.

2007-08-29T15:22:00.000+08:00

today i really woke up at the wrong side of the bed.. because my clock was taken away by my darling sister, when i woke up this morning, i didnt know what time it was.. so i came out of the room and saw the clock.. DAMN!! it was already 2.30pm.. wasted so much time sleeping.. but it was also because i slept at 5am. LOLS. dont even bother wondering what i was doing till 5am because you wouldnt even believe it if i told you.. have been doing nothing really. except for studying abit, then giving up in the end. prelim has already started. and its a totally bad start. but of course., im not giving up so easily.

quote to share for people like me who cant bring myself to study:

"Do a little more each day than you think you possibly can."
-lowell thomas

2007-08-25T22:00:00.000+08:00

everyday is horrrid to me now.. im having a hell of a hard time waking up., school, hmwk., and odd hours(as in the time is allocated not to my advantage.) of tuition which is supposed to help me but in the end giving me alot of headaches instead cos im too tired after a whole lot of work. so many people telling me to do so many different things and not even caring about what i myself want to do. many expectations i have to live up to also, which i put as priority are seriously getting too heavy for me.. some people can even tell me,"thats the sacrifice you have to make now. put others b4 yourself." is my life theirs.? every morning i dont wanna wake up anymore because i know im just going to face another boring stressful day. studying is seriously not difficult. but catching up with people in my class who are extremely clever is really difficult. and yet, some still may comment on me and say,"its not that their so clever. you're slow." wadever. i cant bother anymore. a million words that i really wanna rite, but when i want to pen it down, i jus forget wad i wanted to rite.

i didnt attend school on friday. the school called and asked mom if i was at home. i have been absent frequently this semester and i suppose they think that i might be playing truent. nopes. im not that defiant.

friday night was performance night. after loads of practice it was supposed to be great. but after i saw the place, the atmosphere., i danced with totally no spirit and i was HORRID.. damn damn.. we were supposed to practice 1 last time b4 going upstairs and they asked us to go up straightaway. totally unprepared that we were going to dance rightaway.. furthermore, the small space, the spirit of the people watching was also son solemn. OMG.. that was totally not wad we practiced. OMG.. horrible.

after the dance i left with alvin弟弟 and zhiwei. dad was going to pick me up. then while crossin the bridge i asked them to take a photo cos zhiwei claimed that that stairway down the bridge was rather nice. however, 弟弟 was rather uncooperative.. LOLs.. i was still taking out the cam and trying to get the settings rite.. it ended up. .. .

by the time i took the first picture... he was already at the bottom of the bridge.

i took the second shot. he already walked further..

and now., he's headed towards KFC.. LOLS.. so forget it, i dont wanna picture them anymore.

and today, a totally unproductive day. what have i been doing for the whole day,? watching movies that jie rented home, luozhixiang videos, and more videos, went out., and i coincidentally met yikai again.. and now.?!?! blogging.!! damn.!! i seriously dunno the consequences of not studying hard for O levels huh..

2007-08-19T13:55:00.000+08:00

as per normal.. im feeling awfully frustrated right now because of A.maths.. fancy doing a.maths for 1 whole damn ****ing hour and not getting majority questions right.. SO DAMN ****ing irritating..!!

anyway.. forget that.. 2 nights of fireworks and i didnt really see much of it.. the only time i saw it was from granny's house.. and i could only see those that were higher because they were very very far away.. my K.J. mama didnt wanna accompany me to the fireworks on friday night bacause "raining larh..".. on saturday, dance practice.. i and winnie thought we were going to be late.. but in the end, the other 2 girls didnt show up... so it was only me., winnie and the coordinater, chloe.. really wasted efforts.. i and winnie spent a week choreographing the dance and they didnt show up.. how responsible can they be.. GOSH..!!

2007-08-16T19:57:00.000+08:00

Prelims are starting the 27th of this month.. and i still cant bring myself to study any harder.. damn damn damn damn damn.. i seriously feel very irritated with myself.. AT THE SAME TIME., people are irritating me.. giving ALOT of empty promises.. promise to give me the $$ "the next day" and the $$ never comes.. promise to burn the single camera project that has my friends and i in it.. and she havent burn it.. fuck larh.. it really irritates me.. ALOT.. im now having a dancing thing going on.. and its cool.. but there are still alot of missing dance steps.. nevermind.. it'll get worked out soon enough..

2007-08-06T19:19:00.000+08:00

today the whole day was fine.. till the last 2 periods of the day..
this was what happened:
- before the teacher walked in, we were busily discussing the plans for the notice board competiton which was due very soon and we were in a rush. so when the teacher walked in, we settled down quietly and stopped discussing. except that we did not go back to our original places. he made a big wooha over it.
- so i said,"this is why our class is so efficient. we can never get our work done." we had to use whatever time we had to dicuss about the noticeboard competition. and i wasnt scared to stare into his eyes cos i was very very very angry my blood was boiling.
- 3 groups were supposed to present their projects today. i dunno why, but they did not get it done. hence it had to be postponed. (the teacher have the right to be angry about this.)
- so he asked us to continue wtih our work quietly, and we did do our work, except that the class was rather noisy cos the class needed to discuss.(he can be angry about this too.)
- halfway through the project, there was another wooha at the door but i didnt bother about it. until jane came over and told me that i did not do the noticeboard stuff anymore because the teachers were supposed to do the evaluation of noticeboards today. like wtf.?!?! nobody told us.!!! f.. really f..
- again, i could feel my blood rushing up my head i almost wanted to scream at the teacher. instead, i said, "yes.! very efficient.!!" it was meant to be really sarcarstic.
- a few minutes passed and we were to get back to our seats. and so we did. and another wooha by the teacher.
he asked: "do you guys think there is anything wrong with the class?"
2 people said "no." hence they got punished.
then teacher continued,"did i not tell you the noticeboard competition date was today?"
and so, afraid that there would be false accusations, we shut up except for SR who said some reasonable but semi rude comment. but those who were doing the noticeboard could vaguely remember him saying that the noticeboard would be evaluated on wednesday, national day itself. ok. what if he did tell us the evaluation was on monday? then why did he not even speak a word when he still saw our 2 noticeboards empty when he first came in.???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? damned it.. even for the 20th anniversary dinner.??? we got to know about it far earlier before he told us about it from the other classes. and what i've noticed, it was actually since sec 3, that he always told us information soo0o0o0o0 late. we also only got to know about the noticeboard competition last week when the other classes knew about it 2 weeks before.!! for the 20th anniversary, u may think im exaggerrating, its not easy for several students to fork out $50 in a week. so who'e the inefficient one im talking about now.???? do "you" understand.??????????
and i hate it when we're not allowed to give our proper logical explanations whereas he can give all sorts of alibis.
and yet, he still used my words and said,"1 of ur frens say that this is a very inefficient class. and bla bla bla.." i clearly meant HIM..!! and everybody knows that i meant HIM.!! OMG..\
and i also noticed that our class have no problems with other teachers.!! ONLY HIM.!! so is it the class's fault? or is it the way the teacher handles us?? do u think it helps when a teacher reprimands us.??? no.!! unless its perfectly logical.!! so when u scold us for illogical reasons, it jus makes us lose respect.!! ok.?!?!? and he keeps saying, "if 406 students act this way, how would other people think of you??" the thing is, I dun care how people look at me in terms of behaviour. as long i noe im right., im not a hooligan. so i dun really give a shit to that. what a classmate told me was also rather logical. "its no use arguing with a teacher. he/she always wins. she/he is with a higher status." this is totally right. but is it fair as well.????

DAMN IT.!!!

went to watch "secret" today. its real nice.. the storyline was touching and funny. seriously nice.!!

2007-08-03T20:05:00.000+08:00

i feel that this week of mine have been rather rocky.. one moment im the luckiest and happiest person in the world.. and the next moment., im unlucky therefore unhappy.. my stomach has really been playing tricks on me.. its really painful.. my gastric has come back after taking a long break.. liew.~~

i havent been going to school and that is really a horrid thing..

apparently my alarm clock didnt ring today.. and there was a big wooha early in the morning about me giving excuses not to go to school.. HElLLoo~~~ i knOW that thIS pEriOD of tIme iS vEry cRuciAl.. WOULD I NOT WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL..?!?!?! crazy.. dad didnt believe that the clock didnt work.. till he himself set the clock and it really didnt ring.. GOSH.. would i lie for this kinda stuff..????

forget it.. so i went to school in the afternoon for the A.math test.. really.. is it helping me..er.. rather.. is it helping US at all.. having to stay back in school till 4.30 or 5pm on a friday afternoon to do the paper.. today i was doing the paper for the first 15mins and for the next 1hr45mins i was writing a song and humming the tunes., playing with my stationary., looking everywhere., meditating., and doing everything i could do remaining on that seat of mine.. i also noticed jeremy, who was sitting diagonally infront of me doing the paper for the first 45mins., and staring at the paper for the remaining time.. he was not the only one.. LOLS.. hilarious..

that scene of the day for me was as if i was having PE.. in that scene i was supposed to run while jerry chased after me for a photo and had to grab it from me.. halfway through., the jacket had to be pulled away., and our bags had to be thrown onto the floor while running as well.. plus i still had lines to say while running.. OMG.. we had to take note the limits of where we were running and our voices had to be loud enough for the boom mic and everything.. now i noe those actors have put in ALOT of effort for shows.. i think i had to retake that scene like 20 times.. take off my jacket., put it on again., throw the bag., pick it up.. and in the hot sun.. by the last few shots i was really tired and forgot about facial expressions.. out of the 20 takes i think only 5 were right.. cos i forgot lines., or jerry didnt snatch the photo from me in time or wadeva.. my face was really red by the last scene as if i had jus gone for PE.. phew its over..

anyway.. jie's filming is over.. SHE OWES US PIZZA..!!! lols.. anyway.. we really had a fun time doing the filming.. especially yesterday.. while i and jerry were filming., navin qiuling and peijun were playing with the trolley thingy or wadeva u call that.. pushing up and down the slopes., like kids who's enjoying childhood only now.. we also saw many ex-east viewans..

this is the trolley thing im talking about.. playing with this after a really tough time acting in the hot sun..

yepps.. enjoying our selves while jie was packing up all the stuff..

after staring at this picture for awhile.., i find that taking a picture with this trolley looks abit wrong.. and why is this so dark.??

what is that guy doing at the back.??? lOLS.. this wasnt supposed to be taken cos jerry was jus shifting position.. but qiuling's pose is really nice..

Oh my goodness..!! the girls were supposed to be fierce while the guys were supposed to act cute.. GUYS..!! is this wad u call act cute.??????? and qiuling was supposed to do a high kick.. wad happen to her kick.?? LOLS..

OK.. another take.. and qiuling had given up on her kick.. hahah..

2007-08-01T19:31:00.000+08:00

LOLS.. today we helped my sis do her project again.. everything had to be retaken.. i dont know why really.. but wad the producer says., we gotta follow.. well.. the producer owe us big time.. LOLS.. tmr must continue.. so anyway.. today was really frustrating.. cos we changed the venue., then we had the generator sounds of the air con.. i had to act under the hot sun with a jacket on..

we were jus practising while jie's group mates went to do smth.. and jie actually filmed it..

the funniest thing was that i was in the midst of acting., then i saw a familiar face walking towards me.. OMG.. it was song lim.. i acted on till the last part and waited for the "cut".. but song lim was too funny i laughed out.. OoOppSs.. LOLS..

and ya.!! my voice on screen was TOTALLY different..!! LOLS..

the funniest part was also jerry..!! he couldnt remember his lines..!! it was supposed to be., “不过你要知道，百名棒都是A班B班的人包办。。你这个F般的人想挤进百名棒，简直是要有奇迹出现！” and he kept forgetting his lines.. i think there was about 20 NGs.!! wahahahah.. but its cool.. the producer owes us pizza.!!

2007-07-29T00:19:00.001+08:00

hais.. today so sian can.. i slept at 3++ 4 ytd.. studying hors.. unexpected rite.. LOLS.. then i literally dropped on the bed.. i din off the lights and the component for the whole night.. and i slept like a olog till dad gave me a scolding but i was still sleeping but i still roughly hear him scolding me.. after awhile i woke up and nobody's at home..!! lols.. i went online and crap online.. prepared then went for tuition... after tuition i met up with yeeling.. OMG... her whole eye was bruised.. AGAIN.. waliew.. damn jialat de can..!?!?! lols.. chat chat talk talk.. walk walk.. I SAW LEVAN.!!!! i was so excited larh can.. lols..