Saturday, August 25, 2007 ; 10:00 PM ◄
everyday is horrrid to me now.. im having a hell of a hard time waking up., school, hmwk., and odd hours(as in the time is allocated not to my advantage.) of tuition which is supposed to help me but in the end giving me alot of headaches instead cos im too tired after a whole lot of work. so many people telling me to do so many different things and not even caring about what i myself want to do. many expectations i have to live up to also, which i put as priority are seriously getting too heavy for me.. some people can even tell me,"thats the sacrifice you have to make now. put others b4 yourself." is my life theirs.? every morning i dont wanna wake up anymore because i know im just going to face another boring stressful day. studying is seriously not difficult. but catching up with people in my class who are extremely clever is really difficult. and yet, some still may comment on me and say,"its not that their so clever. you're slow." wadever. i cant bother anymore. a million words that i really wanna rite, but when i want to pen it down, i jus forget wad i wanted to rite.
i didnt attend school on friday. the school called and asked mom if i was at home. i have been absent frequently this semester and i suppose they think that i might be playing truent. nopes. im not that defiant.
i didnt attend school on friday. the school called and asked mom if i was at home. i have been absent frequently this semester and i suppose they think that i might be playing truent. nopes. im not that defiant.
friday night was performance night. after loads of practice it was supposed to be great. but after i saw the place, the atmosphere., i danced with totally no spirit and i was HORRID.. damn damn.. we were supposed to practice 1 last time b4 going upstairs and they asked us to go up straightaway. totally unprepared that we were going to dance rightaway.. furthermore, the small space, the spirit of the people watching was also son solemn. OMG.. that was totally not wad we practiced. OMG.. horrible.
after the dance i left with alvin弟弟 and zhiwei. dad was going to pick me up. then while crossin the bridge i asked them to take a photo cos zhiwei claimed that that stairway down the bridge was rather nice. however, 弟弟 was rather uncooperative.. LOLs.. i was still taking out the cam and trying to get the settings rite.. it ended up. .. .
i took the second shot. he already walked further..
and today, a totally unproductive day. what have i been doing for the whole day,? watching movies that jie rented home, luozhixiang videos, and more videos, went out., and i coincidentally met yikai again.. and now.?!?! blogging.!! damn.!! i seriously dunno the consequences of not studying hard for O levels huh..
