ToDAY's thE firSt day of schooL.. and thE firsT day of mE beiNg seCondaRy 4.. faCing o levEls.. for noW.. facing a very troubled life.. mom's noT at homE.. and im tryIng my best to do wadeva i can.. buT daddy's really out of my control.. i always believe that as long as u have faith.., no matter how hard life can be.., we can always walk through it with smiling faces.. but when i told daddy this.. he just said.."so is faith going to do ur homework for u.? is faith going to bring money and food to you.?" daddy really doesnt understand wad faith is does he.? i trust he'll noe someday.. i was supposed to collect my ic today.. as well as my edusave.. pay my hp bills.. but all these i couldnt get cos of the freaking clerk in my school.."can u come back tmr..?? busy larh today.." like i not busy liddat.. so i wasnt able to do much today.. i went to popular to buy my chinese book..
i talked to mummy online today.. i cannot help but start crying from the start to the end of the conversation.. there's jus so much i wanna tell her.. i just feel so heavy.. cos daddy isnt the type i can talk to.. and jie is just too busy(i dunno doing wad but she's busy).. im just waking up everyday thanking the lord that i already passed another huge obstacle.. but having to go to school as if nothing had happened the day b4.. i really feel like moving out of the house and settle everything at school and start studying myself.. at peace.. without any interference.. sometimes i really want loneliness.. but sometimes i really need somebody to talk to.. mark called me today.. at the wrong time.. i was crying cos daddy was screaming.. and he called to tell me crap.. but lucky he called too.. he made me laugh.. thanks arh kor.. i miss mummy so so so so so so so much.. I MISS U MUMMY..!!
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LOIS CHAN
CURRENTLY A STONE
SPENT 17YEARS STONING
CAME OUTTA NOWHERE ON 14/11/1991
CURRENTLY STILL A STONE AT NYP
THATS WHY ITS JUST DUMB